Confessions (BxB)

Chapter Eight: Trust Issues

I sighed trying to concentrate on the movie with Chad and Michelle, but I couldn’t focus. All I kept thinking about was everything Jude had said to me. I kept playing it back over and over in my head.

I was just some play thing! is that what I am?

Some stupid quick rebound!

You used me!

I felt so terrible inside. I never meant to hurt him. I didn’t want to hurt anybody. Had I made the right decision choosing Aidan? He was my first everything – first boyfriend, first love, first kiss, first date. That’s why I chose him. Aidan may have made mistakes but he never shouted at me like Jude did. But Jude had been upset. When he’s nice, he’s sweet, but when he’s mean – he’s cold. I shuffled through my cellphone scrolling by Jude’s name, debating whether or not to send him a text. Before I could, a text from Aidan popped up on the screen.

Are you home?

Michelle glanced at me with a quizzical face, as I quickly slid my fingers across the keys.

At Michelle’s house. Y?

I want to see you that’s y. Can I come over?

Sure

K. B there in few.

I shoved my phone in my pocket as I glanced up to see both Michelle and Chad staring at me.

“It was Aidan,” I said glancing around awkwardly. “He’s coming by.”

“Good,” Michelle huffed. “Because your attention has been elsewhere the whole time! What’s wrong?”

“Nothing,” I sighed running my fingers through my hair. “I’m just thinking about Jude. I feel terrible about how he and I ended things.”

“He’s insane,” Chad growled taking a sip of his Coke. "Wasn't Jude just some rebound anyways?"

“He was more than that,” Michelle said glaring at Chad. “You know Kyle really liked him. I liked him too. I know it’s probably the last thing Jude will want to hear but maybe you should tell him you’d like to still be friends.”

Chad quickly shook his head. “No! No! That’s a terrible idea! Don’t listen to Michelle! No guy wants to be friend zoned. It sucks. Don’t.”

“I’m not,” I said shaking my head. “Jude is an all or nothing kind of guy. We couldn’t just be friends. It’d never work out.”

“Probably but it wouldn’t hurt to try especially if you’re broken up over it,” Michelle said just as the doorbell chimed. Michelle stood up, grabbing it before I could even stand up. I rolled my eyes as Chad held me down. They could be ridiculously annoying at times. I bit my lip as Aidan walked in, his hands deep in his pocket.

“Hey Chad,” Aidan acknowledged, before he kissed me on the forehead. He sat beside me, wrapping his arms around my shoulder. Aidan was the right choice. I mean he’s sweet, caring, and never did any wrong by me, besides calling me a fag and ignoring me, but he apologized so many times for that. I brushed my lips against his neck, as the movie went off. I waved goodbye to Michelle and Chad, and went off with Aidan. He wanted alone time I’m sure of it. He drove me to the park, where we had our first date. It was weird going out with Aidan in the daytime because he and I used to do things at crazy hours. Aidan was always worried he’d be caught by someone at our high school.  It was nice though, being out with him and not dodging people every corner.