Best Friend Forever ( Sequel to Unpredictable)

The Only Reason

Calum's P.O.V

Jesus. My sister is possibly leaving the earth tonight. I am not ready for this. I am not ready to fight this war they call life by myself. Out of everyone in the world why is my sister cursed with cancer? Why couldn't it have been me instead? I could deal with the pain, rather then watching her suffer from it.

Weall just arrived at he hospital and we are slowly walking in because I can't focas myself on moving. I am to just trying to stop the tears before I see Mali.

"We are here to see Mali-Koa Hood." Michael's mum said. The receptionist started typing on her computer. She gave a sympathetic smioe to us.

"She is in room 366, upstairs. It's on the left." She said. We started walking towards her, and the closer I got the further from her I felt.

The fact that I may have to say good-bye to my sister tonight, is ripping my heart out.

Once we got to the door, I stopped. I could get myself to move any further. Allie put her arm around me and pulled me in for a hug.

"You guys go a head in. I wanna talk to Cal for a second." She said. Luke kissed her cheek and they went into Mali's room. I turned and saw her smiling at them. Thinking this is the last time she will see them, the last day they'll speak to my sister breaks me.

"Calum, I know this is hard for you. It's hard for me, and I can only imagine it since she is your sister but only my bestfriend. But no matter how much it hurts, this could be your last chance to say goodbye to her. I will hold your hand the whole time so you know you're not alone and all of us will always be there for you." She said to me. I smiled a slight little bit and nodded. She locked our fingers together and opened the door. She walked in ahead of me and waved at Mali.

"Ahw, doll your tummy is getting so big! Luke told me about what happened. I'm sorry about your little boy." Mali said as Allie bent down a bit to hug her, but still holding my hand. Luke gave me a weird look at first but then he softened a bit knowing what I was going through had to be hard.

Mali looked at me, and I could see hoe sick she looked. SHe looked so weak and vulnerable. She looked as fragile as glass and I was scared to touch her, or hug her thinking she might just break apart.

"Oh Cal, please don't continue what Mum said you have been doing. Ypur friends also told me that you were doing some bad things because of my state. Just know that I am always going to be your sister whether you can see me or not. I will always be there for you." Mali said to me. I sat down in the chair next to her bed. I used the hand that wasn't holding Allie's to grab my sister's.

"The only reaso I started doing those things, is well I secretly was hoping it would kill me slowly too. That way you wouldn't be alone up there Mali." I whispered, it was barely audible but he heard me somehow.

"Cal I don't want you to do that. I wanna see you happy down here. I wanna see you with your niece and your nephew. Allie and Kennedy both want you there with them through that. I wanna see you and your own children someday. Then your grandchildren. I wanna see you live a happy life even without me in it." Mali said. My hand tightened around her's and Allie's.

I watched as the heartbeat on Mali's monitor slowly slowed down. It wasn't to fast but it showed that I was losing her.

My older sister.

My only sister.

We all sat in silence, no one said anything. They let me talk to my sister, and I finally thought I ran out of things to say to her when more came into mind.

"Words can't even describe how I feel right now Mali. I don't wanna see you like this. I never wanted to see anyone so close to me go through this. I wish I could take this all away from you. I only hurt everyone around me anyway, the least that could have happened is I ended up with fucking cancer not you. You don't deserve this." I said and I felt the tears starting to fall down my cheeks again.

"Calum, everything happens for a reason." Mali said quietly.

"Mali you don't understand though. I built my ego up thinking it would keep you from leaving me. Those three letters kept me back from telling my friends, your own friends about you until it's now to late. I feel like I want to jump off fo a bridge and see what it's like facing death, but in the end I don't wanna die." I said.

"I guess that's what saying goodbye is always like. Like jumping off an edge. The worst part is making the choice to do it, but once it's done all you can do is let go." Mali said. Her monitor is now barely beeping. Her breathing has slowed down and I can see her eyes slowly fading of her dark drown, to what seems light brown and cold.

"I guess this is goodbye the Mali." Allie said, her voice hoarse and quiet.

"I will never say goodbye to you guys. I will say see you in the future, but never goodbye." Mali whispered.

"Calum, I love you." Mali said on her last breath. I squeezed her hand as she flat lined and I knew it was the end I wasn't getting my sister back. Not until I was to old to deal with life and I died aswell. But trust me if I could, I would build a stairway up to hjeaven just so I could bring her back down with me, and if she would refuse to leave then so would I..

Allie tugged my arm and I walked right to her and she pulled me into a hug. I shouldn't be crying on her shoulder. She is supposed to cry on mine. I am supposed to comfort her from heartbreak, just like an older brother should, but here I am crying into her shirt because I'm not strong enough to see my sister die.

"No one is strong enough against this Cal. You're not alone." ALlie whispered.

"And you never will be.." Kennedy added. SHe came over and put a hand on my back forcomfort.

'After everything I did, why are you still here for me?" I asked. I turned to look at Kennedy and she smiled at me.

"It doesn't matter what you did. I understand what you were goign through, that still gives you no reason but I can't say I wouldn't have acted the same if I lost a sibling to cancer. I would be drunk off my ass all the time." Kennedy said.

"Mate we're here for you til the end." Mikey said.

"Thank you guys. Can we just go home ?" I asked.

"Yes, but you are staying at my place with the rest of us. I don't know if i trust you alone. I don't want you to do something stupid" Mikey said.

"What would I even do?" I asked him

"I don't want you to be stupid like I was when I thought I basically killed Luke and then I tried to kill myself Cal. I love you too much to let that happen to you too."