jandon| jacob x brandon

part 26

Brandon

"im coming with you." mark said to me as I was tying my shoe lace.

"no, it's my problem. im just going to see if he's okay." I replied, getting up and brushing myself off.

"jacob punched me in the face. I have a right." he pushed past me and walked to the door.

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sooner or later , mark and i were outside Jacobs house.

i bit my lip, before hitting my fists three times on the door.
it wasn't long before someone opened it, but unfortunately it wasn't jacob.

a man, with a cigarette in between his lips and a scruffy stubble stood at the door.

i saw mark look at me, in the corner of my eye.
i gulped, struggling to say anything.

"can i help you boys? you look a little lost." he chucked whilst leaning against the door frame.

i was about to speak when mark did it for me,
"is jacob here?"

"no. no he is not. ive been wondering where he is myself, and if you do come across him.. tell him to get his ass back here now." he replied, emotionless.

"o-okay sir, thank you for your time." mark said, before turning around and walking back.

i looked at him, straight in the eyes.
no sign of any kindness or sympathy..
of course jacob wouldn't be here. why would he come back to him?!

my thoughts were interrupted by the intoxicating smoke that he had blew into my face.

i coughed and fanned the air with my hand. "run along." was the last thing he said before slamming the door.

i shook my head and ran to catch up with mark

"mark, he is not right in the head." i whispered as i caught up with him

"yeah, no shit!"

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what am i doing?
sat on my ass, whilst jacob could be getting kidnapped or something!

"what did his dad look like?" sondre shouted, coming to sit next to me.

"does that matter?" mark replied for me.

i chewed on the inside of my cheek, spaced out.. before a hand wafted infront of my face.

"you okay buddy?" tyler asked.

"no, NO! jacob obviously isn't happy, and never has been if he has to live with THAT." i pointed to the direction of his house, even though you couldn't see it from my house.
"we are all sat here, doing FUCK ALL.. i miss him. i want to hug him so tightly and feel his warmth again.. but no. i can't because he hates me!" i felt tears running down my face.

i ran upstairs ignoring them all, shouting my name.

i laid on my bed, my breathing still heavy from all the crying.

jacob, here. jacob, there. jacob, every-fucking- where.
my mind were painting pictures of jacob and his soft smile,
which made me miss him even more.

mark pov

i knocked on brandon's door,
knowing he wouldn't answer..
i opened it anyway.

i saw him, lifeless on the bed.

"brandon, listen. jacob isn't stupid, is he? he can look after himself. he just needs time to think.. and with his dad on his back.. it's going to need that little bit more time. maybe he will be back by tonight, he needs somewhere to stay doesn't he?" i sighed and placed my hand gently on brandon's chin
lifting it up to face me.

"think about it okay.." i smiles before getting up and walking towards the door.

"y-you think?" i heard him whisper.

i smiled and turned around,
his body now propped against his head bored.

"yes, don't worry .." i replied before slowly walking out and gently shutting the door.

jacobs pov

i threw the bottle down into the pond, surrounded by huge rocks.

i was sat on the biggest.

this place is usually where people come to have parties, or do some illegal shit.

but i used to come here everyday after school.

i spent hours here,
especially when i had those days with brandon.
when he used to make fun of me, and get his friends to beat me up.

and now im here again,
on my last bottle of beer, and my third cigarette.

i was smiling to myself, happy, and at peace for once.

i closed my eyes,
and there he was.
standing there, tears in his eyes.

i flickered my eyes open,
the alcohol didn't even take Brandon out of my system.

i didn't want to think about him,
i didn't want to think about anyone.

i stood up, wobbling a little bit gaining my balance after a few seconds.

you're going to hurt yourself

"get out of my mind!" i whispered

jacob, you only think about yourself. what about me, the one you love!

"stop brandon!" i shouted, grabbing a rock and hit myself with it.
i stumbled back, dropping the rock and rubbing my head.

"what the fuck are you doing?" i hear a chuckle coming from the distance.

or is that just my brain fucking with me again.

i turned around to see a figure walking towards me,
the dull sky made it hard to see who it was.

as they were getting closer , i soon realised it wasn't just one person.

5 jocks, from my school. great.

"what do you want?" i asked, taking a swig of my beer.

"wow, didn't know you were like this jacob!" the main boy laughed, getting chuckles from the other 4 boys.

"who are you again?" i questioned

i knew his name, i just couldn't remember it.

"it's steve. anywayyy.. can we join you?"  he raised an eyebrow.

my eyes widened, "um, yeah sure!" i smiled.

"cool man, we gonna have a good time" steve smirked.

sitting down on the rock with me.

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sorry this book is so bad atm, hopefully it'll get better soon :)
xx