Feelings and friendship

Chapter six

Who the everlasting fuck is "Mami💙"?
Startled I got up and put on my robe. He said "What are you doing? Are you scared? What happened?"
I picked up his phone and just simply gave it to him "someone seems to really want your attention, you better pick up the phone". He looked at his phone, displayed no emotion at all and looked at me. When he walked over to me, I stood up, walked towards my room, said "I'll be right back" and quickly closed the door behind me. I sat down against the door and tried to fix my hair. What the fuck was I thinkin'? I should've known better! His phone rang again. He probably has a girl. Fuck my entire existence... is this happening, again? This is why I keep to myself and don't talk to guys. I could hear him talking on the phone.

Should I eavesdrop? Is it eavesdropping when it's your fucking house? Hell no. I put my ear against the door and tried to make out what he was saying. "Why the fuck are YOU calling ME?", "No! I'm not in front of your apartment", "This is all your fault... I found someone else", "none of your fucking business... No please.. wait don't do that.". I stood up and stepped away from the door. Yeah, that was my cue to kick him the fuck out of my house. I didn't know what the fuck this was about but I wasn't about to be no one's rebound- nor side chick. The hard knock on my bedroom door that followed spooked the shit out of me. "Aria... are you okay?" he asked. I got up, looked at myself in the mirror and said "stay strong, don't let him convince you to stay". Full of confidence, I walked over to the door, opened it, looked him straight in the eyes and said "get out". "It's really not what you think" he said. I rolled my eyes. "Just go... get out." He gently grabbed my hands and said "please, let me explain". "No need to, now get the fuck.. out." I walked towards the door, knowing full well he would follow me.
"It's just a girl I used to date... we broke up a while ago. Don't let the night end like this.. please" I opened the door and said: "You do not owe me any explanation, just get out of my house..". "Aria, I'm not leaving! I'm not LEAVING!" I pushed him out and closed the door as soon as he was outside. He knocked on the door hard. "Aria, please". He screamed. It sounded kind of scary and I was scared my neighbors would call the cops. Why wouldn't he just go home? This went on for about 10 minutes, when it finally stopped. I went to my room and tried to recompose when I heard something ruffle outside my window. I went to see what that sound was and I saw him standing there. He knocked real hard. What was this behavior? I closed my curtains and fearfully stepped away from my window. He tapped on my window for about 5 minutes then stopped. I heard my phone buzzing. I was not going to reply. We've known each other for too long for him to do me like that and he really had to stop this crazy behavior. I need my space. He kept calling and texting the entire night.

The next day when I stepped out to do some groceries, there he was. Kinda strange but he does live close by and I live on his way to the grocery store. I walked the other way even though I had to go the opposite direction. "Aria!" Luckily I had my headphones on so I could pretend I didn't hear him yell out my name. He followed me and tapped on my shoulder. "Please, let me explain" I kept walking. He came and stood in front of me "please, come with me to my place... let's talk". He looked at me with those big brown puppy dog eyes. I had to admit, he smelled good and looked fine as hell. "Fine."
His eyes lit up "I swear to God, I'll explain everything. I can't lose you now. I finally have you."

What the fuck am I thinkin'? Why am I willing to hear him out? I kind of deserve an explanation and maybe he'll back off a little. I must be a fucking fool.