Feelings and friendship

Chapter eight

Diary of buddy

September 11th 2004
The first time I saw her...
She entered the room and it was like a trillion of stars were surrounding her. Everything was muted. She was everything and everything was her. I was instantly addicted.

October 30th 2004
Everytime I've seen her so far, she looked amazing. Sometimes she smiles at me when I pass her by in the hallways. That makes my stomach flip, in a good way.

November 21th
She actually talked to me today!!!! We were outside and she said Hi. The next time I'll make sure we have a full on conversation. She's so beautiful.

November 30th 2004
I overheard her sayin' to her friends she would be walking home today. I made sure I stood casually outside of her classroom and waited until she passed to ask her if I could walk her home. Hesitant she said 'yes'. We talked the entire way home and i recorded everything she said. Just so I didn't forget anything.

December 5th 2004
I made sure we bumped to eachother each day on our way to school. When I saw her with her mother, I heard her mother mention that she didnt want Aria to go to school alone. I quickly offered to pick her up everyday.
That means I can be in her presence every day. I think I just won the lottery.

March 8th 2005
Today I told her that I loved her. She said she loved me too. Later I found out she meant as a friend. I let her know I loved her more than a friend. She rejected me. I never felt hate as great as this before.

March 9 2005
Yesterday I broke and/or burned everything I ever collected from her. Her old tissues, some things she thought disappeared from her locker, her old bottles of water and even the panty I stole once from the girls locker-room while she was showering. I remember walking home with her that one time, knowing she had no panty on. I couldn't stop thinkin' about it. I came so many times just by thinkin about that while touching myself. But now, I feel a deep hate for her.

September 8th 2005
I saw her today. She greeted me but quickly walked me by. She still looks amazing as ever.

May 29th 2006
Today she gratuated. She never even looked at me anymore. At least I see her every day. Sometimes when she can't act like she didnt see me, I get a nod. I still steal her belongings sometimes. I know some people would say my behavior isnt' healthy but love is an unhealthy thing you know. The thought of her moving to college scares me to death. I have to come up with something

July 30th 2006
Today she moves out.
I bought two trackers. I put one under the new car her parents just bought her. And one on a keychain I gave her and told her never to lose. She looked at me hopeful to rekindle our friendship. I did not want a friendship tho.

August 31th 2006
She had her first day of class today. I've been watching her from a distance. The tracker was the best idea ever. The one on the keychain guaranteed me knowing which room she was in and the other one ensured me knowing every move she made outside of the house.

December 31th 2006
She looks beautiful. I see her dancing with some guy and I feel a rage I probably never felt before. When the guy stepped outside for some fresh air, I made sure to make it very clear that she's mine and that I'll kill him and his family if he goes anywhere near her again. He almost shit his pants hahahah, funny. He never even looked at her again and I saw the disappointment in her eyes. But she'll understand when we're finally together. She'll appreciate me protecting her and our future together. I'll keep doing this till she moves back home or I 'randomly bump into her' so we can finally be together.
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Present day
"You shouldn't have seen that...
He grabs me by the arms and throws me on the bed. "stay seated" he said calmly.
I see his eyes change from the puppy dog eyes I find so endearing to black soulless pits of sorrow and anger. He grabs a wooden box from under his bed. He cradles and pets it. "I've been waiting too long to open you up" he said while talking to the box "Do you want to see what's in it?" he says to me, never taking his eyes off the box. He opens it and shows me what's inside. My eyes widen. In it I see: duct tape, rope, a bottle that says 'chloroform', horse tranquilizer and needles. "Oh, wait there's more." He smiles proudly. "I've bought this just in case those other things dont work and you think you can leave me again" He opens up his drawer and gets the case next to the box I saw. I'm still paralyzed as fuck. He puts the case down next to me and opens it up for me to see a shiny piece, a 38 caliber gun. If I wasn't scared shitless right now I would probably appreciate the beauty of his gun.  "You see, I don't want to use this. But I've noticed that women are unpredictable. The ex I told you about was like that you know. I'd say you could ask her how I handle situations like those but well.. yeah, you can't" he smirks.

I guess he was talking about the girl he was talking to last night, the same girl I saw in those pictures in his drawer. I bet he stalked her and more. "What did you do to her?" I asked when I gathered all the courage, I knew I wasn't going to like the answer. "Well, I was following her for about a year. You know, he said while thinking out loud, she kind of reminded me of you.. I think that's why. She tried to go to the police when she noticed me hahaha that was hilarious." he laughed for a minute straight. And not  normal kind of laughter, it's an evil and hollow laugh. It frightened me.

"Why is that so funny?" I asked. I didn't even know why I asked because honestly, I did not want to know. "When she called yesterday, I realized she knew about you. She found out by finding my collector items..." what fucking collector items? "And she threatened to tell you. I couldn't have that, you understand that right? I've been working towards this. Keeping every man at bay and she thinks she can come and fuck that shit up?" What the fuck is he talking about? "Ironic aint it? You found out a day later, she lost her life for no reason. Oh, well." He said while filling one needle up with a little horse tranquillizer and dip some chloroform on a handkerchief as if it's something he did on the regular. I entered a state of shock of which i did not hear myself hyperventilating. He clicked on the TV to drown out the sound of my panicking.

"Welcome to ATNews. This just in! We found miss Robinson today, beaten, drugged and sexually abused in an alleyway near..." I focused on the photo on the television and realized it was the girl in the pictures, the girl he just told me about. "We believe the assailant has done this to girls before. He goes for short, dark skin girls with curly hair. We don't have a description of this man as of yet. If anyone knows anything... please let us know. And be safe" the news anchor said as if she was looking directly at me.
I started screaming for dear life. He hurried towards me with the handkerchief and put it over my mouth. The chloroform made me black out in a hot second.

When I opened up my eyes I was laying on my back staring at a ceiling. I thought everything was a bad dream and tried to sit up when I realized my naked body was sprawled over a table while each arm and foot is strapped  separately in a leather strap, rendering me helpless. I screamed till I had no breath left. He laughed. "No one can hear you baby, it's just you and me... finally." He walked up to me with the needle filled with horse tranquilizer. I looked around. I'm going to die today. I can feel it.