Some Life Stuff

I Can't Get Over SHIT

Honestly, I can't even lie at this point.
This is my feelings towards A friend who abandoned me. I stand by every word I say here

Look, I miss her. She was super nice, Smart and Awesome. I gave so many found memories with you. And it sucks that I can't make more. All because some dumb guy came along, He obviously made you happy...... Happier than talking with us I guess because You and him wandered off together alot. I remember some of our friends w we Mt out to hang out, Turns out. You and him went out together. It wasn't that thing that upset me, It was the fact you had Canceled the plans with us. You and him got so fucking close, Closer than Me which sucked. I thought I was your best friend, I remember you Said you'd "Always protect the fam" but when I look back on these words, I question whether you actually fucking Meant these words. Because I don't feel like you do
By how I feel right now.

6 months. It's been 6 months since you left me, left my friend group. I know for a fact I sound like some sorts clingy ex when I say I can't let you go. But I truly can't. It's Like, I want too. I want to Hate you, I want to Be pissed off, I want to Glare whenever I see you in the corridor, I want to Feel Mad about you.. But i can't.

I just feel Sad, Like I can't Be your friend. Its obvious you've moved on at this point. Everybody seems to have. You have new friends, I've got to say You've gotten quite Popular. And I'm happy for you, I'm glad your able to find happiness in Something that doesn't Consist of me. I know I can't be a Total Weirdo. I Pace around, I bring up Strange Ideas, Random Questions, Try to hard to make everyone but myself happy. I feel selfish for saying this, But u want to Talk to you agian. I'm not sure of its just For Closure, Even if it was just a goodbye. It would help a lot. I need something, a reason. That's it. I need a reason to Know why you left. You uttered not a word and To be honest

Silence Hurts more Than Words.

Because it make you wonder what the fuck you did wrong.