The End of Our Stars

Chapter 1

The End of Our Stars (A Fan-Fiction Sequel for TFIOS)

Written by Katherine

CHAPTER 1

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Looking up at my ceiling with glow in the dark sticker stars, I wondered if I’d die right now once I took off the cannula from my nose.

I glanced at Philip and sighed. I glanced at my watch and decided to turn the lights off so I could see the stars. I couldn’t stop thinking about how much time I have because I know that my abrupt departure is only temporary and that my stay here will cost me more now than I have before.

My phone rings and sees that it’s Isaac. For a moment, I thought, it would be Augustus, telling me to lighten up because for one thing, I could still play the Price of Dawn with his blind best friend. I picked up after a while and heard Isaac sigh on the other end.

“How are you doing, Hazel?”

I sighed, too. I said, “I’m okay.”

“Do you want to come over tomorrow? Mom’s going to take Graham to the park.”

“Sure,” I said without thinking something else. I couldn’t avoid Isaac because, well, why should I? It’s not his fault I’m still alive. No one’s fault is that but mine.

“Okay.”

And out of habit, I whispered. “Okay.”

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The next morning, I got up and did my usual routine. It has been five months since AG and I’ve been using the same toothbrush and the same towel and the same shampoo and I’m only thankful that I am not using the same socks from then.

My hair has grown out a bit. Its tips are touching my shoulders now and I feel colder which is weird because doesn’t long hair cover you more than short hair?

I walk to the kitchen, dragging Philip behind me and glanced at the ceiling. I cleared my throat to catch Mom’s attention as she busies herself with pancakes and sausages on the pan. “I’m going out. I’ll see you later.” I said quickly and turned to exit but Dad holds me up.

“Where are you going? You need rest.” He said.

I sighed and I realized how often I do that now. “I’m going to Isaac’s. If I rest, I’ll be doing it forever.”

“Hazel,” Mom groans which I realize she often does now. “Sit and have breakfast first. You need to eat healthy.”

“I’m taking the keys.” I said instead and grabbed them from the table by the kitchen doorway. “I will see you later.” I promised and went out with protests singing behind me. I was afraid they’ll come after me but they didn’t. So I went straight ahead for Mom’s car and got in, shoving Philip in the passenger seat. I switched on the radio and pulled out of the driveway, turning for Isaac’s house.

Halfway there, the DJ started playing The Hectic Glow. I was both thrilled and depressed at the sound of them because (a) I am finally listening to them on the radio with everyone who is listening to the station which makes me miss Augustus Waters less and (b) I miss Augustus Waters now more than ever.

“Okay, so that was The Hectic Glow, everybody!” the DJ says. “They’re having a concert this Friday in Lucas Oil Stadium so be sure to purchase your tickets today to have a pretty good seat. I heard it’s going to be packed!” And I know that the DJ is only saying that out of a script that The Hectic Glow manager provided but I was suddenly excited either way, my depression being overcome for a minute by this one event that could’ve been more exciting with Augustus Waters.