I will always be there

shocking truth

We started to explore the hidden room. It was pretty small so we had to crouch. I had to crawl because of the small room. Jooheon opened the small closet, we found photo albums in it. So we took them out and sat down to look in it. The pictures looked old, they were of a woman and man. The woman looked like mine mom only younger, the man didn't look like my dad. The woman looked really bright and happy with the man. When we opened the other book she was pregnant, the man was holding her belly and looked very happy with her. we found a little note in the book. I told my beloved husband that I was pregnant of his child, he was surprised at first but his surprised face changed to a happy one, I really love him we will be a good family. we live in a good place protected by the king, so our child can grow up safe.

We than saw a picture of her and her husband and their just born baby. It looked cute, a bright family. the picture also had a note with the name of the child. Our sons name is Hyungwon.  That when I.M looked at me and said: "hyung the baby kinda looks like you just as the woman.". It indeed looked like me but it couldn't be me, i Know my dad and that man isn't him. so I told him: " i don't think its me my, I know who my dad is and that man isn't him, The woman does look like my mother but we have lived in the slums since I can remember.". We than took the other book with more pictures. The baby boy was playing with his dad or sleeping with his mom. But than we saw a pictureof a coffin. The note said that the man died and that she had to go to the slums and marry the mayor. That's when I.M screamed: "hyung it is you, she is talking about slums and a mayor and your dad has been a mayor since he became a grown man!". Jooheon hit his head and told him not to scream because he could wake up the others.

It than hit me, it could be me. We went further in the books and saw my dad suddenly in one of the pictures. The other pictures were me but only a bit older. than the pictures stopped suddenly, it stopped when my mom left the house. we found a book an other book but not for pictures. It was a diary, written by my mom. 

Dear me,

I left the man, I wish I could take Hyungwonnie with me. But he needs a place with a well incoming. Hyungwon is safe there, I will still see him. I won't live far away,I want to see him grow up.

It had been 4 years since I left, I remarried a man. The man is just like my first man, we even got a child. He is just like Hyungwonnie, bright and cheerful. I told my new husband about my first son and he told me that he would love to see Hyungwonnie in this house with his little brother. But they can't be with each other I left him. Hyungwonnie does grow up pretty good. 

Hyungwonnie is 19 now. he grew up well I see him with friends a lot of times. 4 of them are older, 1 is the same age and 1 is 2 years younger. the group look like rebels they help the poor people when the armed people are rude to the people on the market. I know his dad beats him up, I don't understand that man. While Hyungwonnie was away with friends at night I visited my Ex husband together with my new husband. I told him to stop beating him up and that he should show him love. If he would hit him more I would take Hyungwonnie back with me.

A few weeks later I heard that Hyungwonnie left the slums together with his friends. I hope he found a better place with his friends. He can always come back so I will wait for him.

A war broke out. My husband and my son and I could escape. We were away around the time that they bombed the place down. I hope Hyungwonnie is safe, I hope he can meet his little brother one time at least.

It has been 50 years now, I started to look at the old pictures and my old writing. Well this will be the last time I write, I'm getting to old now plus hyungwonnie is probably already grown up with his own family and children and grand children. I will still hope to see him, but he probably has forgotten about me. My son is still searching for him, when i told him that he had an 8 year older brother he wanted to look for him. Maybe he will find him, I still live in this house. I go on vacations often now with my husband.We have seen a lot. and the world has gotten brighter after the war.  

Bye dear me.

I started to cry. It looks like my mom was still so close and cared about me all those years. I have a younger brother. I looked at Jooheon and I.M who were also crying. "Why are you guys crying?" is what i said while sobbing. "It's just so sad how she still cared about you but you never knew it."is what the both said while crying. I took the written book with me and the photo albums. I put them on the table of the living room and went to our sleeping room. we fell asleep after our little advanture. But atleast I'm happy that I found this out. It is shocking though that I had an other father and that I have a little brother. Well he isn't little anymore.  He is now older than me. I came to the futher  as  a 19 year old boy. They have lived for 50 years so they aged. I hope that I can see them.