I will always be there

Get it together

*Minhyuk pov*

The boys told me to go home after staying 3 days with hyungwon straight. I didn't want to leave him, what if he died while I was away. They told me that  dying in coma doens't happen much. They basicly dragged me back to the caravan, I really didn't want to leave Hyungwon. "Minhyuk get it together he will wake up, Hyungwon got the will to stay alive and you know that!"shownu said to me. He never screams but he did it to get through me with it. "I'm sorry shownu hyung." I said to him. "you stay here tomorrow with kihyun after tomorrow you can visit again but only as long as we stay you have to stay alright." Wonho said. I nodded. They were right staying their the whole day won't help Hyungwon and it isn't healthy for me. I took a shower and went to bed with the others.

the next day I woke up early. I went to take a shower and after the shower I made them breakfast. I useally never cook but because I wasn't allowed to go I thought abut doing some stuff to not think about it. Not much later Kihyun came to the small kitchen of the caravan, he was surprised that breakfast was ready. Luckely Kihyun would stay with me he is after Hyungwon also the closest to me. I met Kihyun before I became a member of the X clan. He actualy got me into the X clan.  He ate the breakfast and went to take a shower. The others woke up while he was taking a shower. our caravan is pretty big we got enough space for us 7 to sleep and also enough sitting space. Kihyun came back and told the others that the shower was free, and thats when war broke out. The other four were fighting over the shower. one shower and 7 boys in one place is not a good combo.

After everybody had a shower we went to the market to get food. Even thoug I was with the boys I kept tinking about Hyungwon. Why does my mind stay with him, I have to think of something els to not get depressed today.  When they had all the food they went back to the caravan. They told me that they would go a make some money and that they would come back around 6. Kihyun and I stayed behind, he is like a nanny now. Because their was nothing to do I sat on the couch, I wish I didn't sat down. I started to think about Hyungwon again because of that I started to sob quietly. Kihyun noticed it pretty quick and came to me. "minhyuk stop thinking about Hyungwon you only look pittyfull. What would you think if Hyungwon saw you like this. I will tell him when he wakes up if you don't stop crying or sobbing now."he said while sitting down next to me. "I'm sorry. but there is nothing to do so I started to think about it." I said. 

"you're such a baby is what Hyungwon probably would have said right?" I nodded at what kihyun said. "well stop crying, you should get it together. Hyungwon will get mad at you if I tell him this." I locked at Kihyun and told him not to tell him and that I would stop now. "so get it together minhyuk. Let's  think about the place we will go to  next month." he said. "but what if Hyungwon isn't awake yet." I said. "well we will take pictures of the place and if he hasn't woken up we will take him again when he does wake up." he said with a little forced smile. I could see that he hoped that Hyungwon would be awake by the time we go there. 

"Kihyun can I tell you something?" he nodded at my question. "well, you know I have been with Hyungwon for a pretty  long time and even when my family died I wasn't like this. everytime he smiles I get happy to. When he got hit by his dad i felt anger rise up. I always wanted to see his smile it made me love him. his inocent smile and kindness to everybody." i kinda confessed my feeling for Hyungwon to Kihyun. "Look minhyuk everybody already noticed that you love him except for Hyungwon and I.M but I think Hyungwon would be the same as you if you were in an accident. Hyungwon cares about you ust as much as you care about him. you just need to tell him. He knows that you will always be there just as he will always be there for you."kihyun said to me. Kihyun as always been good with words. He knows how a person is and can see right through you. "Minhyuk i want to confess something, only you and Hyungwon don't know it. and that is my past. I used to be a murder. I murder people from to slums to protect my family." he than told me. "Why did you never told us 2." i said "well Only Shownu and Wonho and Jooheon knew it but ater we got here I.M got it out of me, I promised that I would tell you guys and now i'm telling you." I was kinda surprised at what kihyun told me but than again the clan has people with an history or a background. The day flew kinda after our talk. I got it together again after kihyuns pep talk.