little ❦ yoonseok

XXIII

yoongi laid in bed, staring up at the ceiling that was decorated with glow in the dark stars and planets that hoseok had stuck up there himself. he had watched as the younger man got a ladder and plastered the stickers one by one for an hour, covering the whole space just for him. looking at them now, he felt a sense of peace, a sense of tranquility wash over him. 

he remembered when he first discovered that he was a little and the shame that he had felt. how he threw mr. woobie across the room with no remorse, burying himself under his blanket and sobbing into the pillows. he just couldn't understand why he wasn't normal, why he wanted to be babied so badly, though he was a grown man with his own place and bills that he had to pay. he tried to rationalize it, telling himself that it was just the stress going to his head. but as the days went on, the want to just curl up in his softest pajamas and watch a colorful cartoon grew stronger. 

he blamed it all on hoseok. the brunette just had such a caring nature, and such a loving smile that yoongi fell into it every time. the way he playfully cooed at him and mussed up his hair, how protective he got whenever anyone would look at him the wrong way, it fed into his desires without hoseok even knowing it. he couldn't help but want, want hoseok to stay with him always and take care of him. he would never tell the younger that though, it was too risky, and the chances of a positive outcome were too small. 

being a little, he always had doubts that he would ever find someone who would be willing to take care of him. when he started falling for hoseok, those doubts grew bigger because the only one he wanted to take care of him was the dancer, no one else would do. there wasn't anyone else that he envisioned tucking him in and reading him a bedtime story or giving him a bubble bath with little rubber duckies. he was just happy now that those doubts had turned into something even greater. 

he snapped out of his reminiscing as the bed dipped next to him, the dance instructor pulling him in without a word. he wrapped both his arms and legs around the boy, snuggling in to the crook of his neck just to make him giggle. it was like the whole room lit up as soon as he entered, but he didn't expect anything less from the very epitome of sunshine. 

"what were you thinking about, baby bear?" hoseok asked, placing a soft kiss to the underside of his jaw. "you had that look on your face." 

"what look?" he raised an eyebrow, returning the kiss with a gummy smile that he couldn't hold back. 

"the look you make when you're content. it's the same way you look at me." he said gently, squeezing his sides just to hear him laugh. 

"you know me so well." yoongi sighed, melting into his embrace like he always did. looking into the brunette's eyes now, it seemed like he could see the whole universe in them. the stars and the cosmos, constellations and meteors, billions of balls of gas. it was more beautiful than anything he had ever seen. the star stickers right above them paled in comparison. 

and hoseok was right, yoongi was content. he couldn't think of a time where he was happier than he was at that very moment. having someone by his side that he knew he could depend on made all the difference. he was no longer regressing because he was so stressed that he could barely get up in the morning. he regressed because he was happy to do so and because he knew that when he did, hoseok would be right there for him, making him smile. 

sometimes he felt like he had to have done something outstanding in a past life. like saving a whole country from war, or helping 1,000 kittens find good homes. something so amazing that he deserved to have hoseok. sometimes he felt like he didn't deserve hoseok at all, like he was too tainted, too dark to be with someone so pure. but most of the time, he just felt grateful, and he wished he could someday show hoseok how much. 

but laying in bed with him, staring up at their makeshift sky of stars was more than he could have ever asked for. from the moment he woke, to the end of the night, he cherished every day he had with hoseok, good or bad, big or little. it was a dream that he never wanted to wake up from. he sincerely loved hoseok, with every fiber of his being, so much that it hurt at times. and his world was and always would be better with him in it. 

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{ the end. }

i wanted to say that i really enjoyed writing this story and the great response that i got from it, it truly does mean the world to me! this is the last chapter )): because i wanted to end it on a good note and while people still sort of cared. it's not all about the reads, votes or comments, but over the past two months, i've felt a bit discouraged when writing chapters for little and i think my favorite thing about writing is writing stories that i am passionate about. and i just wasn't as passionate about this one anymore because it seemed like you guys weren't as well. so to end on a good note, this is what i have for you guys. 

this may not be the last if you guys want to do a q & a for this book, i'll leave spaces below for you guys to ask questions and if i get enough, i'll post that soon! i know q & a's aren't usually done at the end of books, but i did that with adore and i think i would like to stick to that tradition. 

thank you for all the love! i can't believe this story is at 150k reads right now! that's insane to me, truly thank you from the bottom of my heart. i really do enjoy writing, i have since i was a little girl, and you guys inspire me to write more every day. 

if you like vkook and would like to continue supporting me and my works, i have a new fic out called dazed with side yoonseok as well. i hope you guys like it ((: 

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