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Don't assume whatever you see on the surface,

Like they say "Don't judge a book by it's cover",

I know I seem cruel for being even colder,

But keep in mind that I don't want this to happen.

I shy away from you because I believe you want me to,

I shut my mouth because I think I'm annoying you,

I don't mean to look angry or be cold towards you,

It's just how I am, and I want to change too.

So please be patient with someone mental like me,

My mind full of demons that're commanding me,

I fight everyday to keep them all at bay,

Before the day they finally break away.

Understand, this isn't the life that I chose,

The line that I'm grasping, there's still time to let go,

I want to be free, to never feel cold,

I want to be happy living with the people I love.

I'm sorry if anything I say came out harsh,

Or if my behaviour might seem a little brash,

When I don't reply don't just say that I'm cold,

I'm just worried that I'll hurt you with my thoughtless words.

I'm scared of being annoying,

The person that keeps on appearing,

Even when you've had enough of me,

and can't stand to even see a glimpse of me.

That's why I avoid most people that I care for,

I know I'm clingy and I don't want you to hate me,

For demanding your attention when you don't want to see me,

And I think that's what my excuses are all for.

I'm not cold, I'm just a little fearful,

Expecting the worst when all is plain and cheerful,

I don't hate you, don't ever assume that,

I'll never despise you, I'm sorry if you thought that.