Cutting Edge (Frerard)

23 (Trigger Warning)

♾Frank's P.O.V♾

He's in love with me. I'm in love with him. But is a relationship the best idea when our mental health isn't the best?

I don't want to hurt him when he is on the edge of suicide. I say things I don't mean and usually it's really offensive.

I feel like I'm taking advantage of him, he's broken and wants affection from anyone he can find. I can't tell for sure if he wants to love me or just wants my love.

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I take my medication when I went to the bathroom. Gee doesn't know I take medication, it's better if he didn't know. If he knew he'd probably od on it or think I will.

My emotions are so confused. fuck. I open the bathroom door. "I'm taking a shower Gee, you can play guitar for a bit or draw".

I closed the door and locked it because I didn't want him walking in. He knows I take around 30 mins to shower so I have to be quick.

In my cupboards I have blades. New and old. I picked out a new one and sat on my toilet seat as my shower was running.

The blade sliced across my wrists around 30 times each. Because it was a new blade it was very sharp meaning I lost so much blood.

-35 mins passed

The cuts wouldn't stop bleeding so I said "fuck it" and continued to do more to add to my problem. I will tell you now that this wasn't the best idea, especially when the man I'm in love with Is waiting for me outside.

I'm sorry.