How could I be so blind

what do I do...

Charity awoke slowly, from a wonderful dream, Phin was home and over working himself as usual, but he was home and that's what mattered. She sighed and looked around her, Phin wasn't home, and the mess she'd made the night before, was.... something to say the least. No, her only company in this massive house, it couldn't be a home, was Bear and he whined softly. She stood slowly, a headache forming at the base of her skull, and fed and watered the small dog, he didn't deserve to suffer, just because she was suffering. As the little dog ate, Charity cleaned up the mess she'd made, wondering what Phin would be said of he were there, probably something along the lines of Charity Barnum! I hope you don't think you're cleaning that up alone! And then he'd rush over, and take any cleanning supply from her and finish. She smiled at the thought, God Phin, why can't you just wake up? She asked herself, mentally.
"I guess, I'm going back to the hospital," she muttered.
She dressed, and didn't bother eating, before leaving to go to the hospital. She walked quickly, avoiding cabs that stopped to ask her if she wanted a ride. I'm not sure I'll ever be able to ride in a cab again, she thought, remembering Phins accident.
*FLASHBACK*
PT Barnum was on his way to a restaurant, to have dinner with his wife and children. He was as happy as he'd been in a long time, so he was whistling while he walked. He stopped on the corner, and picked up a bouquet for Chrity, of her favorite flowers. He thanked the courier and continued on, when he spotted his wonderful family, "Charity," He called running across the road toward her. He didn't see the carriage coming toward him, and the driver couldn't stop in Time.
Charity shrieked, and it was the last thing PT heard before he crumpled to the ground, no longer responsive.....
*end of flashback*
She shook herself off and continued down the side walk, avoiding cabs and men whistling. She sighed what am I going to do with out you?

Thanks for reading!
-Phin