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Yoongi(⭕️)

-angst
-just Yoongi
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Yoongi cried and let out loud sobs. He felt his heart race and hands get shaky before screaming. He screamed, screamed into the thin air and collapsed. Collapsed on the cold and harsh floor. His knees scraping against the smooth floor as he screamed and cried. The only thing he felt was the depression and pain eating at him.

The pain spread from his heart to his throat, suddenly having the feeling to vomit. To throw up all his guts and just cry. He wanted to feel empty and nothing, but the though of feeling empty scared him. He wanted to feel relaxed and happy.

He wanted happiness to flood his entire being and to be swallowed by comfort, but that didn't happen. He was stupid and didn't listen, but he didn't know. He didn't know that he wasn't supposed to so he let it happen. He let the deed be done.

But that only caused him pain and misery. It made him incapable.

He again felt the need to throw up again and shove two fingers down his throat. He wanted to. He wanted to regurgitate all his feelings and let them eat away at the floor, but it didn't happen. All that happened was tears and now silent screams.

He banged his head against the floor and screamed again, letting it tear away at his vocal chords.

"Stop! Please stop!" He screamed, trying to command the feelings to stop, but they didn't. They kept eating at him as he screamed louder, harder. "Stop! I want this to stop!"

He scratched at the floor repeatedly, making his fingers drip blood. He kept repeating the action, not stopping until the pain caught up. He let his fingers go limp and laid down tired.

He was tired of everything. Tired of the emotions, the pain, him existing.

He suddenly slouched, finally away from the pain. Yoongi fell into a dreamless sleep.

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