Im sorry (nash grier and cameron dallas)

Ch14

I was walking around the park and just thinking why I fell for his trap.

I always fall for people that are nice to me. I just think that they actually like me. I'm so stupid and naive.

I walked 3 laps and saw a swing set I also saw a guy sitting in one of the swings but I didn't know who it was. I walked towards it and sat in the swing next to him.

"Are you ok?" the boy said

"No, you?"

"Same." he says dryly

"Do you mind me asking what happened." he asked

" There was a guy. and I thought he was actually interested in me. he was nice, caring, and sweet to me and I fell for him. but I was wrong and..."

"And he only wanted you for sex" we said at the same time.

"Yea. I know how you feel I also met a guy, and he also only wanted me for sex." he said

"Your...g-" I asked

"Yea I'm gay but I'm a good person who only wants a friend." he am said sniffling

"Same."

"Thanks for letting me vent out on you it was nice." I said

"No problem and thanks for letting me too." he said

I got up and started walking away.

"HEY!." he yelled

"What's your name?"

"Hazel. yours?"

"Kian. hey can I maybe have your number and we could hang some other time." he asked

"Umm yea sure."

I gave him my number and gave him a tight hug.

"Everything will be ok Kian. I'm here for you." I said quietly

"I'm here for you too Hazel."

I started my walk home. I was just thinking about how Kian and I are so alike. he's so sweet and kind.

And then I felt a hand on my arm.

"Get the fuck off me!" I said

It was cameron.

"Leave me alone cameron." I said

"No I need to know why you hugged that hobo guy." he said

"First he's not a hobo and why would you care we are not together anymore."

"I never broke up with you, why are you wearing so much makeup and why are you walking alone it was one little fight." he said confused

"Well guess what cameron I'm breaking up with you, and I'm wearing makup cuz before, you were the only reason why I didn't wear it." I said

"Baby no, you know I like you so much it was just one fight I don't want you just for sex I promise!" He said

"Yes you did leave me alone Cam!" I yelled

I started walking away. but he caught up fast and grabbed my wrist.

"Let go!" I winced from the pain of my new cuts

"You promised you wouldn't. Does it hurt?" he said looking at my wrist

"Yea it does. It's all your fault your the one who caused this. I'm done with you just leave me alo-."

He cut me off by pressing his lips to mine. he was kissing me harshly and with so much passion. I pushed at his chest and I punched him. he stopped kissing me.

"What is your problem! why would you kiss me I fucking hate you." I cried

"I love you." he said looking straight into my eyes

I froze.

"No. no no you can't just tell me you love me. It's not even true screw you cameron you don't love me you dont."

"Yes I do I love you so much I didn't know how to tell you." He said with tears in his eyes

"No. I. Don't love you." I said tears streaming down my eyes

I pulled my arm from his grasp and started running. I ran so fast I didn't know I could run that fast.

"No wait stop please babe I love you!" he yelled

I didn't stop I just kept running and running. his words replying in my head

I love you.

I love you.

*******

I got home and went to my room. I started to cry so much I couldn't stop. I couldn't stop because I knew that I did love him, he's the only person who I actually cared for. yea I like Nash but I've always been attracted to Cam.

I took off all my makeup and in dressed and put my pjs on it was getting pretty late and the sun was setting.

I added 10 cuts to my collection.

I went to my bed and just laid there until my eyes got heavy and I drifted off into a painfully deep sleep