Phir se ✅

• Phir se - 2 •

And without further ado, the 2nd part of Phir se! I am so glad you guys are loving it.

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"Look, didn't I tell you she must have something to do with his disappearance like always. She has already tried to do this before beta but I didn't let her succeed and now that she got a second chance she didn't even wait before showing her true colours again."

Hearing those similar words from his mother's mouth were eye opening for him like always. But this time, his eyes opened in real sense he would say. Had she always been saying such biting words to Jeevika when they were together? He knew the answer. He had been too busy in planning to notice this. His mother had always shared too good of a relationship with his first wife. There were times when the same relationship had created ripples in their marital relationship. Sanjana had been too materialistic to the point of neglecting her own son right after birth. Apparently child's crying was too much for her to bear, so she preferred to not have him even within hearing distance. He still remembers how she had insisted to be placed in the ward farthest from the nursery. He couldn't help but compare his 2 wives. When he had finally divorced Sanjana for better, it turned out to be the best decision for both him as well as his son. Karan hadn't asked about her for a single time. But in case of his Jeevi ma, the boy wouldn't stop pestering him.

"Mom, please leave us alone. You know she cannot do this. Jeevika wasn't even aware of our arrival just like we were about hers."

His mother apparently too shocked that her son had argued with her for that. She was literally gawking at him open mouthed but he didn't spare a glance at her not willing to break the eye contact with his wife. Yes, Jeevika was still his wife. For the day she had left he was going to ask for a chance to mend their non-existent relationship. He did not love her. But he was sure, with time he would. Apparently it had been too late then. But now, fate had offered him another chance and he wasn't going to waste a minute.

He signalled his...no, their son to leave them alone for a while. After he left, he locked the door and looked at her for reaction getting none. She was still in too much of shock to think straight.
He crossed over the room reaching her and hugged her tight. He heard her gasp but she didn't hug him back. Nor did he expect her to.

"Karan isn't the only one who missed you."

Hearing those words broke her dam. And he together with her cried for the pain he gave her, the pain caused by their sudden marriage, the pain of losing those chances to create beautiful memories, the pain of separation and finally for Karan who got caught in the crossfire.

Releasing her, he made her sit on the bed while he knelt before her taking her hands in his. He found a strange comfort in the gesture, it gave him the strength to go ahead.

"Jeevika, I know haven't been really nice to you, to say the least and there's too many things to apologize for. Frankly speaking I can't remember a single moment where I would say my behaviour towards you was appropriate. I am not trying to justify myself but you do need to know about these things. 

You see, my first wife Sanjana was my mother's choice and they got along too well. In fact sometimes my mother would support her wrong ambitions when we could have easily reached a compromise. Such repetitive happenings even made doubt my own decisions. My insecurities only grew due to this ignorance. Things had already reached the point of divorce when my mom suggested that a kid would bond us together but as you may have already concluded, it only worsened the matters. Though I would still say that Karan is one of the best things that happened to me and you too only I didn't realize it until too late. 

For Karan, I took the decision of separating from her and it made our lives much better dare I say so. When you entered our lives, I didn't want to raise my hopes up. So I tried to maintain as much distance from you, and in the process you ended up getting hurt. I feared that in case our marriage suffers the same fate as my first one, it would break Karan even more because he was much more attached to you which he never was with Sanjana. So I tried to make sure in my own way that he wouldn't become much emotionally dependent on you.

 Inspite of all this, you somehow managed to enter my heart, how, when I don't know myself. I just didn't realize it then. As time passed you washed away my insecurities regarding our relationship and I too began to deal with the remaining on my own. I knew if I wanted to take our relationship forward, they needed to be dealt with first. Sharing them with you wasn't really an option since we weren't close enough which was also my fault I admit.

 From our  years of marriage I am sure you must have known by now that I am not someone who can express emotions easily. So even though I knew I needed to talk to you over these things, I was totally clueless on how to go about this. The day when you handed me divorce papers, it gave me the final push I needed to verbalize what I felt. Before I could reply I had to go to attend urgent matters and when I came back I found you gone leaving no clue behind. If I could turn back time, I would choose to clear the matters with you before going there. All these years every moment I have wished for nothing more than that."

He sighed feeling relieved from finally being able to do it. He knew he didn't deserve it but Karan made him greedy. But he didn't want to use Karan to bring her back. He knew she would do that because that's exactly what had kept their marriage intact for 2 years. But this time he wanted her to come back for him also.  He knew he could do it. He wasn't clueless about these matters anymore. Once she was convinced that he would welcome her as not only his son's mother but also his wife, she would come back. He knew, that's what she wanted and now her every wish would be taken care of. By Him.

Realizing that he had given her enough time to digest all the information he continued.

"Of course I am not expecting you to forgive me immediately. All I ask for is a chance to turn our non existent relationship into something that you had hoped for in the beginning and what I have dreamed of with you all these years. Would you give me a chance to provide Karan loving parents who love not only him but also share an amazing relationship with each other?"

Outwardly Jeevika was calm but Karan knew she was going through an internal conflict of her own. He hugged her in hopes to end the war in his favor and give her the same comfort her touch gives him.

"hmm."

He heard her reply between her sobs and smiled feeling her hold tightening.

He didn't realize it until much later that a small body had sneaked in between making him lose whatever body contact he had with her. He tried to hug her from a different angle. Key words, tried to. But he couldn't, it seemed like his son wasn't going to share his Jeevi ma anymore.   What had he expected? His son was equally possessive of her if not more. And now that he had been without her for so long of course he was not going to share her with anyone be it his father himself.

"Baap hun tera, woh toh dhyaan mein rakh!" (Keep in mind that I am your dad)

But his son wouldn't budge an inch. In fact he snuggled into her bosom even more showing his smirk.

 'That cheeky little brat! One day I would be in that position.' That thought sent him to his dreamland.

    Viren was going to have difficult time achieving his goal. But the obstacles he would face won't be from Jeevika like he had expected. It would be his very own son.
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And that's it! I am finally done with this chapter. Since this chapter was going to be the turning point of their relationship, I took my time to make sure it goes right. I hope it did.

Since this chapter was emotionally heavy, I hope it wasn't boring for you. But next chapter will be fun for sure.

As for one important news, my exams start in less than a month so I will studying for that and won't be updating any of my stories until later.

Most likely though I will complete this story of Phir se.

Published on 16th March, 2018