Her and I

Hurt

Newts POV

I was sitting there, probably looking like an idiot, staring at those bloody hypnotising eyes of hers. She was there so close, I should've kissed her. But, the coward I am, I didn't. I will though, mark my words I won't be leaving this world without doing so. She was thanking me, for everything, all I wanted to do was to thank her. But if only she'd've come a month earlier. Then maybe I wouldn't have this limp, maybe she could've turned things around. Maybe not, who knows? Bloody universe, that's who.

My bed feels colder without her next to me, I'm still worried I'm going to get those nightmares, I know it's inevitable that I'll get them, but maybe now, Hey won't be as bad, I know she could, maybe be mine. She was so warm, like a heater warm against me. I'm a bit worried she's running a fever. But now that I come to think of it, she was warm the first night she got here, it feels like she's been here the whole time, but she hasn't, it's weird how time can make you think that. Y/n seems like a good actor. She told me she was fine afterwards, but I know she was really disturbed by what Joe had said, I could see it in those hypnotising eyes of hers that she wasn't okay, this afternoon at dinner, y/n was mentally exhausted. I was taken off guard by her when she lent her head on my shoulder. I know I should be fine with the feeling of her skin on mine, just a piece of fabric between us... anyway! All the nerves in my shoulders fizzed and tickled under my skin, her hair tickled my nose. I clenched my jaw and breathed out a silent, deep breath. But you see the problem is, with likening... maybe even loving somebody, is that you forget anyone else in the area. I did. Until those slintheads, Minho and Gally laughed and took my moment away from me. I was so embarrassed. Utterly and totally.

I lent my hands behind my head, staring at the Ceiling. It was oddly dark tonight. I suddenly heard light footsteps run past my hut, I shot up. My mind raced as I slipped out of bed and rushed to the door sliping my boots and a shirt on. I was trying my headrest to think that it's not y/n, not her. She would tell me if something was really wrong right? This same thing happened a while ago. A Greenie, Alex. He had been having it tough. He had no one to talk to, so I heard footsteps run past my door, frantic footsteps... I thought nothing of it. The next morning, we found him hung by the neck with vines from a tree. Now I was outside. I ran after the footsteps which were running to the deadheads. Since it was unusually dark, I tripped a few times. I stopped and listened for any noise of breathing. I ran a hand through my hair. My eyes flitting through the dark and the shadows. I walked a few steps, then I heard a loud gasp. My head snapped toward the sound

"Y/n!?" I called. I ran toward where I heard her gasp.. well. I think it's her... I spun around a tree, and there, clutching her hand was y/n tears running down her face. Her chest was heaving in and out taking in silent sobs. Then she gasped again and looked at her hand. I stepped forward. Her eyes, even though it was dark I could see them, bright and clear. She looked at me and then away, shaking her head
"N-Newt please, you... you don't need to worry I'm fi-" she cut herself off by wincing at her hand. I frowned and I kneeled down next to her, I grabbed her hand out of her grasp as examined it. She'd stabbed herself across her hand and it was bleeding, she was shaking her head, trying to pull her hand back, but I held onto it tight

Your POV
What Joe had said really made me think, I listed down in my head a list of reasons why i shouldn't be here.
1- I'm an abnormality to the group. There are no other girls here and
2-I'm in the way of everything
3-most of the boys now were suspicious of me and
4- Don't  trust me
5-Newt...
6- joe...
I took off into the deadheads, I ran, I didn't want to stop. As soon as I ran past Newts hut I knew it was a mistake. Of course he wouldn't be asleep yet. Of course he would go after me. I ran so fast I swear my legs were going to fly off. Tears ran down my face, I could hear newt behind me but I didn't stop
I don't know where I was going but I was running. Suddenly my feet went from under me and my hand hit the ground first, I gasped out, I pulled up my hand, I heard newt call me, I'd ripped the skin open across my hand and it was bleeding and I was pretty sure if twisted my ankle. I was done for now, Newt would find me and question me and hate me forever. Then maybe though I would have more reason to end this.
There he was, pain strewn across his face.

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