Jooheon began to stumble with his words. "I uh. That's not. We." I smiled at him. It was too cute to see his reaction. I then grabbed his hand and looked at everyone. "Sorry we woke you." Hyungwo shrugged still chuckling at himself whilst the others just mumbled about saying it was okay and that they were glad we finally came around to our feelings. We then sat down and ate our breakfast. Before too long it was time to go into the dance practice room. We were starting to rehearse for our new song beautiful. It was going to be a music video so we had to put in a lot of rehearsal time. About a quarter of the way through I began to feel queezy and dizzy. I didn't let that stop me though. I kept dancing. Even when the room was spinning and I kept running into people. It started to almost become too much though as I felt my stomach begin to turn. I didn't have time to run to the bathroom and the next thing I knew I was doubled over off to the side of the dance room. I turned around to apologize but saw everyone standing behind me. They all looked so concerned. I smiled at them as their faces seemed to mesh together. "I'm fine dont worry. I'm also sorry about this I will cle." I didnt finish my sentence as my knees gave out on me and I collapsed. I don't know who caught me. All I know is I felt like I had no control over my body when I came crashing down. I opened my eyes and noted that I was in a semi dark room. When I looked out the window you could see the sun had just set. I then noticed that I was in a hospital room. An iv was in my arm and I started to feel the pulsing headache I had. I continued looking around me at the white walls. A picture of a flower hung on one of them. Bellow it was a desk with some flowers and a few stuffed animals. I imagine the other members brought them. I continued looking around but gave up as there wasnt much to look at. I heard voices to the side of me and turned my head towards the door and saw the other six of us plus two managers. The managers quit walking as a doctor came up to them. The other members seemed to stop as well but were told to continue. I could visibly see some of them huff and it made me smile. They then walked into the room quietly Jooheon being the first to notice I was awake. "Minhyuk." He rushed over to my side and grabbed my hand. I smiled at him. I wanted to hug him and to talk to everyone but I felt too weak. The past few weeks of ignoring the fact I didn't feel good was catching up to me. Shownu then came up to me and smiled sadly. They all did that, even Wonho. I didn't want them to smile at me like that. I don't want them to smile like that at all. I want them to be happy. Why arent they happy? "How are you feeling?" I gripped Jooheons hand as tight as I could before shrugging at the leader. I want to talk to them but for some reason I just can't. That's when I finally realised the tube down my throat. How I hadn't noticed it sooner I have no idea. I then looked at Jooheon. I wanted answers. I preyed he knew that's what I was looking for. "I don't know. The doctors have been running tests for a few days now." I scrunched my eyebrows at him. What did he mean a few days!? "You had a seizure after getting sick. Youve been asleep for three days now." A seizure? That doesnt make any sense. I wanted Jooheon to be pulling a cruel prank on me to pay me back for everything ive done to him. After looking around at the other members I realised he wasn't. This is great. I get a boyfriend and then I pass out for three days. Great job you dope. I mentally slapped myself. We all sat in silence for awhile until it was interrupted by the managers walking in. "Everyone. The doctors found out what's wrong." You could feel the air stiffen around us. It was almost suffocating as we waited for them to continue. "Minhyuk." I looked at our manager. His brown eyes were so sad showing the dark circles that surrounded them. "You have lung cancer." My body froze and I felt Jooheons grasp tighten around my hand. I could feel everyone's sadness. I could feel them slowly look at me. I could hear Hyungwo and Jooheon holding back tears. I could feel I.M. holding me intently. I could hear Wonho curse words under his breath. Out of the corner of my eye I saw Kihyun biting his finger. Shownu grabbed my other hand. I soon felt them all hold me trying to make me feel better. That's not how this works. I'm supposed to be there for them. I need to be the one to make them feel better. Not the other way around. What did I do in my past life to deserve this? Why am I being punished? Why am I sicker than I thought? It was supposed to just be the flu. How could it have turned into lung cancer? I felt a wave of sadness run me over and I began to cry. Everyone hugged me tighter and I felt Jooheon kiss my cheek. Why cant I move? I'm supposed to make them feel better and make them laugh. I started coughing as I choked on the tube. Soon after some nurses came in and removed it. My throat was sore and it felt as though it were still there. That pain was nothing to what I felt mentally. "I...I'm sorry to put you guys through this." I began crying once more as they continued to hold me. "I want to go home." My voice was hoarse and quiet but everyone still heard me. Manager smiled at me sadly. "You should be able to come back to the dorm tomorrow and start treatment next week." I shook my head violently. "No. I want to go home." I saw the light bulbs brighten in their heads. "We can take a couple weeks off until you feel strong enough to continue." I nodded tears threatning to fall once more as I gave in and let those around me hold me.
