"I went through a billion emotions and memories just to find out that I love you and I need you with me. We've been through a lot together and I'll pass through all of that again just for you to see what you mean to me".
She's not able to understand...
A tiring, odd and emotional day for you was almost coming to an end, and you are glad that you survived this entire time. Right now, your mind is full of different thoughts and your heart is full of emotions, in some way everything started to change after you were with Jinyoung, and you actually can't believe that you hugged him that tight without even knowing what you feel.
-Maybe Alia was right – You said thoughtfully as you remembered Alia's words.
For you is kind of hard to fall in love again since you're afraid of getting harmed once again. You know that Jinyoung isn't anything like Junho, but you still afraid to accept that you're starting to feel something new for him. As you kept on thinking about Jinyoung and your feelings, you heard how someone was knocking your door. You went immediately to the entrance and opened the door.
-Mark? – You said confused and surprised.
-Hey Heesun, can we talk? – Mark asked as he looked at you pretty worried.
-Sure, come on in – You said kindly as you left him come inside, then both of you sat on the couches from the living room.
-I know you didn't expect to see me right now, but I need to ask you some questions – Mark said as he looked at you.
-Is it about Jinyoung? – You asked as you looked at him concerned.
-Yeah... does that bother you? – Mark asked.
-No, I'm kind of getting used to it. Jinyoung is everywhere... they talk about him there and there so is common for me to hear about him – You said as you released a settle grin.
-Guess you're right Heesun but, why do you get so sad when someone mentions his name? – Mark asked worriedly.
-*Sigh* if I was a fan of yours it would be pretty easy to say that "I'm in love". But because I'm a dancer at your company and I got the chance to meet Jinyoung in my dreams, it's hard for me to love and idol... just to feel love again – You said sadly.
-So you love him? – Mark asked concerned.
-Do I really need to answer that? Mark... I don't really know - You sighed.
-Listen, Alia told me the arguing you had and I agree completely with her. As a childhood friend the only thing I can tell you is that you should stop fooling yourself, stop pretending that you two are okay, and just confront each other's feelings. Because if you love him you shouldn't let him go, you should be there for him and care about what he feels – Mark said seriously.
-How should I make him feel complete and loved if I'm afraid of loving someone? I really want to help him out but... who's going to help me to avoid falling for him? – You questioned frustrated as you covered up your face with your hands.
-Heesun... Junho is in your past now, move on and at least try to feel that special treatment for someone else – Mark said as he patted your head gently, then his phone rang. He saw the phone screen and then he looked at you once again.
-I have to go, but don't forget what we talked about right now. Let's hang out another day, everything will be brighter and we'll have lots of ice cream – Mark said with a sweet smile before he got out of your apartment.
Now that he's out from your place, he left you thinking about more stuffs than before... and now the real questioning is, where should you start?
-Jinyoung's POV-
-That food was delicious! – Youngjae said as we kept walking to our home.
-Yeah! And it was nice to see iGot7s, they were so kind and friendly – Yugyeom said with a smile.
-It was nice to meet them, they cheered the day up to a little more – JB said as he reloaded his hand on my shoulder.
-We should hang out more often, this was really good after rehearsing for hours – Jackson said happily.
-We should! – BamBam added.
-Feeling better Jinyoung-hyung? – Youngjae asked a bit concerned.
-Much better, thanks for that guys – I said as I smiled at them.
-Hey! We wanted to cheer you up, and I bet that after having a full tummy and a happy meeting with iGot7s, you feel better now – JB said as he cluttered my hair.
-*Chuckle* I am, thanks.
We continued walking until we reached our place, everyone got inside in a hurry since we needed to get some work done before tomorrow's morning, and in the meanwhile I went to my room. To be exact I was searching for the letter that Heesun gave me; Victoria's letter for me. I wanted to break it and just throw it away, just because right after I read it everything started to change in between Heesun and me. I wanted to get rid of it the fastest as possible because I can't have any memories from my last love since my heart already found a new person to love.
-Got you! – I said as I took the letter.
Underneath my bed I have a lighter since sometimes I put candles on my bedside table; I lit the fire up and then I moved it forward to the letter until the letter finally started to burn down to ashes.
-Hey – Mark said as he sat down right next to me, then he patted my back.
-Hey – I said as I kept looking at the flame forming bigger on the letter.
-You're saying goodbye to the past? – Mark asked.
-I'm saying hello to what's coming next, by the way, how was your meeting with her? – I asked curiously as I released a smile.
-*Sigh* hard to tell if she's going to come back to your linking dreams again, but she definitely needs you – Mark said as he watched the flame.
-Hmm, I suppose that we need time...
-Your past is already gone from your heart, but you'll need to vanish her past as well – Mark said as the letter burned down into complete ashes.
-Let's have a little bit of hope, shall we? After all this is brand new for both of us - I spoke.
-Brand new for you? Well, I guess you have to learn to love again – Mark chuckled as he reloaded his head against my shoulder.
-Learning again, from the ashes.
-You should stop acting, you're getting too poetic – Mark said as he released a laugh.
-*Chuckle* I'm not... am I? – I said as I looked at him confused.
-You are – Mark said as he kept on smiling.
-Thanks for being here Mark – I said as I released a smile.
-That's why I'm your psychologist, and your best friend... you can count on me - He said while holding onto my arm.
