...little is ever mentioned about the long-term effects of extreme anorexia on it's survivors...
I wake in the morning
To a sky of dirty grey
And I wonder how I
Will get out of bed today
When life has no reason
It's purpose seems gone
I search my reserves
But I'm no longer strong
A failure as a female
Albeit my own fault
For ruining my own body
Opportunities I've spoilt
You don't realise till too late
When the damage has been done
The destruction of your future
Has already begun
Never able to eat normally
Never able to have kids
Days now fraught with seizures
Is this really what I did?
But I force myself up
I can't rewind my clock
You're a long long time dead
Its my fault, this is.... 'my lot'
