When We Were Mercs (Jake Muller x Reader)

When We Were Mercs (Jake Muller x Reader) Pt16.

Wherever Luca took us, there was another black pickup out back. Alex was in the best shape out of the 3 of us, so he drove us back to the destroyed base.  Said that there was a second chopper about a mile past where we originally dropped. Jake and I hopped in the back, covering up with the leftover tarp. The best we could do with no medical supplies was put a couple pieces of tape to hold the cut on Jake's face closed. I was just dozing off, again with my head on his shoulder and his head on mine, when....

Jake: "Thank you."

(Y/N): "Hm?"

Jake: "I said thank you. You saved my life today. I've always kinda felt like I was on my own out here. But, with you...Call me crazy, but, I feel safe. And for me that's saying something."
I snapped awake, picking up my head to look at him.

(Y/N): "Jake."
He looked at me and those eyes just cut right through me.

Jake: "It's only been a few days, but, there's something about you that makes me feel...Alive again."

(Y/N): "Jake...You do the exact same for me. I'm just..."

Jake: "Just what?"

(Y/N): "I'm just so....scared."

Jake: "Why?"

(Y/N): "It's a long story."
He shrugged.

Jake: "I'm not going anywhere.''
I gave took a deep sigh and nodded.

(Y/N): "It was 3 years ago, I was 15 and my partner was 16. My team was on a seek-and-destroy mission for some tech that could've killed thousands, innocent and otherwise. While the rest of them went to find the tech, my partner Devin and I were supposed to wipe out any B.S.A.A. in the area. It was alpha team, and we had gotten all but the captain, Chris Redfield. We had him cornered, guns aimed, easy take-down."
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(Y/N): "Drop the gun, it's over."

Devin: "Everyone else is dead, you're outnumbered."
That's when I heard footsteps behind us.

(Y/N): "Dev, we got a flanker, watch it."
Devin turned and, for some dumbass reason, I did too. Redfield took the opportunity and shot his handgun. He ended up missing all but two shots. One into my leg, making me drop to my knees.....And the other in Devin's chest, right after I fell. As soon as his scream registered in my mind, I crawled to him and shot the flanker.

(Y/N): "No no no no, Dev, c'mon stay awake. Eyes on me, focus on me!"
Footsteps came closer behind me and I felt the barrel of a gun against the back of my head, and I froze. I heard him pull the trigger, a sharp click following immediately behind it.

Chris: "Dammit!"
He threw the gun past me as I moved Devin to rest his head in my lap, and ran past us and out the door.
I put my hand over the bullet wound, even though I knew there was no stopping the bleeding.

(Y/N): "Hey, c'mon, stay with me! Devin, please, keep your eyes open!"

Devin: "(Y/N), listen to me...You need to hide. You can't save me, angel."
He always called me that, saying how I could 'make the dark go away' and fix past scars.

(Y/N): "I'm no angel, I can't fix this. Please, don't leave me. Please."

Devin: "I could never leave you. You know that. Please, for me, hide. Bravo team is probably already on their way here. If they find you, they'll kill you too."

(Y/N): "I DON'T CARE, I'm getting you out of here-"

Devin: "There's no time! I'll always be there for you, (Y/N). No matter what."

(Y/N): "But......But I love you."
He put a hand on my cheek and smiled.

Devin: "I know. And I've loved you.......Just as.....Long."
He was fading, I could see it in his eyes. I did the only thing I could think to do....I kissed him. He put a hand on my neck and kissed me back. 2 years of wondering, waiting....All summed in one perfect kiss. And it was only perfect because I was with him. He pulled away as he breathed his last breath, and I just held him in my arms. But when I could hear bravo team's chopper getting closer, I had no choice.

(Y/N): "I love you. You called me an angel, now you're one too."
I kissed him on the forehead and got up, my leg not even on my mind anymore. I ran as best I could, finding an old oak wardrobe to hide in. I slipped inside, not paying any attention to that fact that there was still blood pouring from my leg. I passed out after a while. I woke up 2 days later in a hospital room, hooked up to god knows how many machines. Apparently I was lucky to make it until back-up arrived to help my team. The doctor said I was actually gone for a couple minutes.
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(Y/N): "That's why I don't get close to people. Why I'm afraid of how I feel about you. How you make it easy to feel that way. Jake, I love you. Too much to let myself get close to you."
His face softened and he was quiet for a minute or so. Then he put an arm around me and pulled me against his chest.

Jake: "I know. I know what it's like to lose the ONLY person you ever felt actually cared about you. But then I found you, and I feel like I can live again. Let me be that for you. Let me love you."
I started sobbing into his shoulder, wrapping my arms around him. When he pulled away from me, I touched his face, running my thumb over his taped cheek.

(Y/N): "Jake.....You already are. And for the first time in years.....I can let someone love me, with NO fear."
I smiled and kissed him. I cried, not really knowing why. I think it was because I felt like I finally found a home for my heart to heal in. And someone to hold it when it feels like it can't anymore.