Maddie
I chose this. It may be the worst decision I've ever made pero nagawa ko lang to kasi I love her.
I love her.
I'm always there for her and she's always there for me.
But she's always there for me lang pag she's away.
It maybe confusing...
Bea and I are bestfriends since we were still kids.
I've been falling for her slowly.
And I've been hiding my feelings for her for years already.
I never told her about my feelings kasi...
She have a girlfriend.
Yes, the "she" i was talking about.
Ayaw ko namang makasira ng relasyon. Andyan lang siya para saakin pag wala yung girlfriend niya.
Galing noh?
Close kami sa isa't isa.
Bestfriends since kids nga diba? We know a lot of things about each other.
I know her past relationships.
At mapapatanong nalang ako na,
'Andito lang naman ako, bakit hindi nalang ako?'
I was always there for Bea.
I was always there when she needed me.
I was always there to protect her.
I was always there to be her crying shoulder.
Bea, I was always there yet you feel so alone.
'But where were you, when I needed you the most?'
Where were you when I thought that you would be there for me when the world turns its back against me?
Where were you, on those cold lonely nights when everything seem to be without a light?
Where were you, when my world seems to crumble?
Where were you, when I thought that you would be there for me all the way?
I know where you were.
You were with your Jhoana.
Because I know that you only come to me when she's not there for you.
I remembered when we played Truth or Dare.
You said truth and I asked you...
"Who makes you happy?"
I was assuming that you will say my name because, you have once said that you won't be happy without me.
But you answered me with a very sweet smile,
"My Jhoana."
And my heart was broken into pieces when you said that.
And one day, I woke up seeing you in my room.
How sweet of you naman kasi you prepared me my favorite breakfast which is pancakes.
And you joyfully said, "Good Morning! Eat your breakfast na."
That day, you made me realize that,
Hey, who needs a boyfriend when I have you?
Until one day,
You said, "I love you."
Well, I guess you said that kasi you and your girlfriend fought.
How could you make me believe that there was something between us?
It can be undeniable as it may seem,
There was something between us.
And I guess, we live in two different worlds...
Divided by the fact that you are hers and I am to nobody.
The thought of "you chose the sorry of excuse of your girlfriend over me" hurts me.
But i guess you never believed of the idea that there was an us in the first place.
Well, there was really never an us.
Don't worry, I'm okay. I was always okay even though it hurts a lot.
But I have to let go for now... not for you but for me.
I have to set myself free. Thank you for everything. I can't deny that everyday I was with you was the happiest days of my life.
I wish you and your girlfriend a happy, strong and healthy relationship. I'll be okay hehe.
Goodbye.
--
