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Me: Why is she here?

Logan: They changed their mind about letting you stay here. They think you will corrupt me in some way.

Me: So they are giving me to my mother...of all people.

Logan: It was either that or jail.

Me: Jail....(I turned around, back facing Logan) take me to jail please.

Mother: Nicole....sweetie I--

Me: Stop calling me sweetie...

I turned back around and faced her.

Mother: Nicole.

Me: Why are you here anyway?

Mother: For you.

Me: That's a damn lie.

Mother: Look I care about you Nikki. I just want to help you.

Me: Another lie....the only person you care about is yourself.

Mother: That's not true.

Me: When your own child was hit by a train did you cry? Gave him a funeral? Cared what so ever?

Mother: Well I---

Me: The answer you are looking for is no. When me and Lain told you about it what did you do? You didn't care one bit. All you cared about was finding you a date, even though you were married and he was right next to you. He never got a funeral because you said "since he's a fuck up he should stay were he died". Not one tear came out...EVER. I know I shouldn't care about him but he was my brother...and your son.

Mother: Look, I was going through some rough times and---

Me: And you had to bring your kids into it.

Mother: Nicole, I just couldn't control it.

Me: But you did control all the drugs you gave them. You could control the violence that you and dad showed every night. You could control your own damn life but you choose to keep it like it was.

Mother: I couldn't control my life.

Me: Mothers would do anything for their children.... you wouldn't even give up you meth for us.

Mother:...

Me: We tried to help you and dad but did you guys take that help...NO...you spit in our faces and told us to fuck off. LITERALLY.

Mother:..

Me:I thought we meant the world to you. That was your first lie you told us wasn't it? Damn I should have listened.

Mother: What do you mean?

Me: You told me that me and my brothers we're your world on my sixth birthday. When you left the boys came in and said "don't believe her, she's not telling the truth, she's just gonna use you."

Mother: How do you remember that?

Me: Please everyone remembers things that changed their lives.(looks at Logan) thank god we're starting over huh.

I left the house and refused to look back. I started to walk towards the jail while also trying to figure out what I'm going to say to them. Half way their I started to get really bad cramps. I stopped and sat down waiting for them to stop. But they didn't.

They were getting worse. So bad I started to curl up begging for it to stop. Before I knew it I was out. I was in the dark. I couldn't see anything. All I heard were random things.

Random things: Wake up.....oh my god.....(sirens coming closer, being picked up) my baby.....don't.....dead......please....

That was it, I couldn't hear anything else. I woke up looking at the ceiling. My head was spinning but at the same time my whole body was numb. Wondering how the hell I got here I looked around. I could see people talking but I couldn't here their voices. Thinking Oh my god I've gone deaf I start to freak out.

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