“Adeline, there’s a priest outside. Fix yourself, I’ll let him in.” I only look at Doctor Suarez as he mentioned a priest. Why do I need a priest? Doctors aren’t enough to torture me, and now they’re killing my conscience? I only took a deep breath.
When the priest entered the room he’s looking at me with pity. Do I really deserve his sympathy? For a woman who was confined here, and treated like a dog? “Good morning, Adeline.” as he held my hands, I can’t help but to cry out loud.
“Why did they call you? Am I going out?” with my eyes, I’m begging for the third time around.
“I am here to help you to confess all the sins that you’ve committed.” the priest opened his bible as he take a good look to all the bruises in my body. “They said you’re a psychotic patient.” he added.
“Confess all your sins to me as I help you to pray with our God.” I was a bit hesitant, but I managed to compose myself.
“I am, Adeline Moncreiff, a sinner who tried to look like a saint in front of everyone. I, who was looked up by many, who was treated like a princess in my very own household. The one who gets what she wants, I confess to you, that I am sinner in my thoughts, actions, and in my words..” my voice are cracking as tears continuously flowing out of my eyes.
“..I am a sinner as for I have killed someone when I was a child. I killed my my own brother. I killed him because of an unexpected accident. He’s torturing me, threatening me, and even molesting me. Our family covered that issue however in my deep conscience it’s still there. I killed him. As for my thoughts, I only want to be superior among everyone. I wanted to be the best among all of them. I want to break their bodies into pieces as I laugh while seeing their sufferings. A woman who wore a mask for a long period of time, but for the all sins that I committed don’t you think this is too much?” as I confessed, confusion can be drawn to his face.
“Father..” he gave me a warm hug as he pats my head. “Continue, Adeline.”
“The only thing that I remember, my body was molested by an unknown man. I’m a rape victim. When I woke up, I’m here in this prison, bruises in my body, mixed up thoughts which became hallucination. Depression. Day by day, I’m dying.” I added as I felt that my nose started to bleed again. He quickly get his towel, and helped me to wipe it.
He presented a piece of paper, “Read this out loud to me, Adeline.”
“Then I acknowledged my sin to you
and did not cover up my iniquity.
I said, “I will confess
my transgressions to the Lord.”
And you forgave
the guilt of my sin.
Psalm 32:5”
I look outside the window, and it’s raining again. “I am a sinner who tried to look like a saint, but here I am confessing everything. As for what I am right now, I deserve to die.”
Author's note: If you are not open minded, I advice you not to read this post.
