My Hope 「J.Hoseok」

{Chp.6 "Class Field Trip"}

What is happiness?
I've been wondering what it is in my whole entire life.
People will say, Happiness is when you smile and when you feel brightened up.
But...how do I smile?...when the world around me is burning down little by little.

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Saturday Morning [Class Field Day]

     "Are you sure you will be alright dear?" My grandma worriedly said.

I grabbed my duffel bag from my closet and sat it down onto my bed.

     "Ma I will once again say it...I am going to be perfectly fine" I said to my Grandma as I quickly looked for clothes from my closet.

I folded my clothes and stuffed it in my bag. I quickly putted other important things I will need, like my blanket and other things. We are only staying there for 2 days and 1 night so I didn't need to bring much.

As I got ready to go to school with my things a pair of hands stopped mines. It was my grandmas. I knew she was worried and I wanted to let her know I can do it.
I turned my body towards her. I held her hands and smiled at her.

    "I trust you my dear but please make sure to be safe" She said.

I nodded. I knew what she trying to say and I know she doesn't want say it because it would hurt me.
My anxiety attacks has been severe lately...we'll just a little. It's nothing to bad but my grandma still worries for me. I feel bad for her...she always has to worry and I hate that.

I went down stairs to the kitchen and found my grandpa.

   "Hello dear. I heard your going camping." he said with a smile as he walks towards me.
I nodded with a smile. He patted my head.

    "Be safe" he said.
My smile slightly disappeared. He worries too and I just feel more like I am a burden to them.

I started to walk to school with my things. As I walk pass by the alley I turn to it and wondered what happened to the cat.

"I hope its okay..." I thought to myself.
I was staring at the dark and lonely alley for a couple of seconds then suddenly someone tapped my shoulders.

I quickly turned around. It was one of my classmates. He is one of the volunteers. Now that I think about he didn't talk to any of us but contributed well.

   "You are going to be late if you keep staring at this alley you know" he suddenly said in a very calm and somewhat lonely voice.
I looked at him in the eyes not knowing what to say.

   "Let's go" he said as he started walking.

I was confused really confused but I followed him anyways. While walking together ( not side by side) I tried to remember his name but it wasn't clicking. I kept thinking and thinking but nothing is coming up.

     "Kim Hanbin" He stopped and said.
I bumped into him and I was completely in shock like as if he was reading my mind.

     "Kim Hanbin? like IKONs Kim Hanbin?" I asked.
Also what's up with everyone stopping in front me...I keep bumping into them.

He nodded but did not look at me.

We continued and we finally reached school. I could see our classmates waiting. Me and Hanbin went to them and waited for our teacher.

The school bell rings and we were still waiting. I took a glance in the school entrance and saw a girl running towards us.

     "Jung Hoseok!!!" She yelled.
My heart started to kick faster. Everyone's attention was on her.

     "Hey! Jiyeon! What are you doing here?" Hoseok yelled back.