I know the way to go, no one's guiding me. (On Hold)

Chapter 4

*Lillie's point of view*

Yep. That was awkward as fuck.

Gosh. I wish I could tell him. Tell anyone. This guilt inside me is taking its toll on me. Also the fact that I can't find my fluffy socks.

Oh, why does he keep winking at me?

Maybe he.....no. Don't you think it. Don't you do it. I start to scold myself.

I decide to go back into my messy room and fall asleep.

********Lillie's dream********

"Come back!" Jimmy whales as I walk away.

I try to turn back but I can't.

"No Lillie! Please don't leave me. I need you. Please don't move away from us!!" He gets on his knees and cries out.

I try to speak but I can't. I start to cry.

"Please. Don't do this to me. I love you." He falls to the ground and I don't hear him again.

Suddenly I see something in the distance. I walk towards it.

James Sullivan it says.

On a gravestone.

I fall to my knees.

I never got to say goodbye to him.

I never told him that I loved him....

I start cry.

*******End of dream*******

I scramble to get to my phone and see that its 3 in the morning. I call Jimmy. Maybe I should tell him that I love him.

"Ughh. What do you want? I'm not bringing anymore Ice cream over." He says groggily.

"I'm sorry for waking you up. I had to make sure you were okay. I had a bad dream about you." I sniffle.

"Oh. What was it about?"

"You had gotten into a car wreck on your way back home." I lie. Nope. Still not going to tell him.

"Oh. Well I'm okay. Goodnight Lil."

"Goodnight Slim." I hang up.

Well he's okay. His voice soothed me.

Why did it?

Fuck. I'm not falling for him. I'm not falling for him. He's just my friend. Im still 99% sure he's gay. I laugh to at that thought and fall right back asleep.

I wake up around 8 and thank God that I don't have to go to work today. I run downstairs and pour myself some coco puffs when I realise there is some Ice cream left over. I can't waste this cereal. Hmm...maybe Jimmy wants it. So I calk him.