When you want to cut
But it's been so long
You don't know if you have it in you anymore
To grab that blade
And twist it on your skin
Watch it dance while the damage slowly drips
Down and down like a fallen dancer
And you don't know if you have it in you anymore to see those who care realize you've disappointed them and have gone down that path again
And again
And again
Because you all know that if you start this again it won't be the last time and it won't be just once
Because you know that once you start you just can't stop
It took you 7 years to stop the first time
And it'll probably take another 7 to stop this next time
If you make it through those next 7 years though you know you'll come out stronger for not only have you defeated your demons once but when they came back stronger than ever you crawled away from their grasp and fought with all you had and it may not be enough to remain intact but it will be enough to see the next sunrise and to understand that your demons will always be there ready to strike and they may drag you down but you will stand up one day with your head held high and your arms littered with scars
And as that sunrise warms your face know that this last battle may not be the last but for now you are victorious and that for now is enough
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Thoughts For Suicide
PoetryThese are my own thoughts. I am in NO way encouraging people to harm themselves or do something destructive to themselves. If my thoughts make you feel this way, message me and I'll walk you through the urges. We are each fighting our own demons a...
