i think im getting bad again,
im not staying on top of things,
And i'm struggling to catch back up
But im falling further and further behind
And each step forward just feels like three steps back
And it seems like no matter what i do i just can't seem to get my life on track
And it's the little things that i've been doing thats making me think like this
No homework, nor studying
No cleaning up my room
No showering, barely brushing what's needed to be brushed,
im hardly eating and im rarely drinking
And i can't even say i've been sleeping
i stopped smiling and i stopped crying
And all those pesky emotions in between
i feel just so confused and so blank
And nothing is making sense
Some days i just wander and wonder what im doing here
And other days I'm thinking am i filling a purpose
Or just making other lives harder instead
and im seeing creatures again
cant stop imagining thin sharp lines tracing my skin
demons are haunting me
And memories wont go away
Their touch wont go away
i feel them crawling in my skin
Feel their stinging hand on me
But at the end of the day,
At the end of all this
i honestly can't tell if im headed down that road again or if it's all just in my head
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Thoughts For Suicide
PoesieThese are my own thoughts. I am in NO way encouraging people to harm themselves or do something destructive to themselves. If my thoughts make you feel this way, message me and I'll walk you through the urges. We are each fighting our own demons a...
