The mistake that followed

chapter 5

Arielle 

I stopped going to school because I found it to be unimportant there was nothing there for me . I only went home when l thought it was  necessary which was once in a blue moon  . That didn't happen often when dad text me to refill his medicine I was in and out and made sure I didn't see my mother . Calling her that was like having  poison in my mouth . 

I did a lot of runs for John but didn't really under stand much . He was kind of happy that i asked no questions . 

The things I've seen by working with him would make any body want to ask questions . 

"Arielle you there ?" the sound of his voice brought me out of my little world ." yea John I'm upstairs " I shouted back 

"you ready to go yet ?" 

"yea just a sec " I pulled on a pair of washed out blue jeans a t-shirt and my Oxfords . 

I heard voices but could not make then out . Some one yelling  and I could tell it was a girl but what scared me the most is when I decided to take a peck and saw Johns sweet face turn cold as he slam the girl into a wall. I shivered at his words "you little bitch let me tell you some thing you see this I'll pull the trigger with no hesitation " he held a gun to her head and i watched her drop to the floor and cry .

I felt the pain for her. " get this bitch out of my sight " he said then he spitted on her . She looked up at me all i could think of was damn she saw me. Her eyes made my stomach turn as I saw every raw emotion that she felt. From regret, to pain, to sadness, then the last one hit me hard fear. She mouth what I thought was a "your next". 

I didn't know if to believe her all I knew was she was afraid. As I played her face in my head I pictured jasmine then I said no only audible for me to hear. She was tough I thought or was that all an act.

  when she was gone he said 

"do what you want with her then get rid of her " . I was so confused what did he mean by get rid of her so when I said it  I wasn't surprised . 

He turned around so fast and he glared at me . My flight or fight reflex was to run up stairs and not turn back . I found my self in the bath room crying . As I replayed that girls face in my head . She look like she took a mean beaten then scared to death by having a gun to her head. Her facial expression was some thing not to forget and That cold glare I got from john when he looked at me . I have  never seen him like that so I was taken aback . All I could have done was cry my self to sleep . 

The banging on the door was all I heard next . The banging was all i could think about was I next . Then WHAM was the last thing before .....

---------------John 

I was pacing around the floor trying to think of what to do . Arielle wasn't suppose to see that . How can I make her my right hand now . 

With out even thinking I found myself up the stairs and banging on the bathroom door . I could hear her squirming around in there . I was getting anxious so I just punched the door by the nob. I putt my hand in the hole and unlocked the door . When I was inside I could find her she could have only hide in the tub And the window was to small for her to crawl out of so where the hell would she be . I was about to open the door to leave when I heard a sniffle.  I looked at the cabinet under the sink and said no way.  I walked to it slowly and open it really slowly I had to jump back and laugh  when she tried to squirt shampoo in my eyes  . When she jumped out and tried to fight me I just blocked her hits but that just got her even more mad . When her foot found contact with my face I froze seconds later I found myself holding her and I didn't know how . When she finally calmed down I said soothing words and told her I was sorry and it was business . 

" business you call it ? " she looked like she was thinking really hard ." is that what you have been teaching me ?" I didn't really know how to answer that question at all . What was I going to tell her damn right I wasn't gunna tell her the truth ; but what if she is with my plan . 

" I want to make you my right hand so are you with it ? " I asked her with out even thinking twice it was all or nothing . "yes " that's all she said before she got out of my arms and left me sitting on the bathroom floor wide eyed .

 

 

--------Arielle 

I didn't know why I said yes but I just did . I walked away from him with no other words said . I had to smirk at the way he looked dumb-struck like he fazed out or some thing . 

Some how I found my self home ; the same place I was avoiding. I thought it would be better if I moved back in . I heard a glass Bottle hit the ground . I heard my father scream in agony . I found myself in the kitchen with in seconds . My dad was holding his head with blood gushing out of his head ."you bastard" my mother screamed . 

"you stupid bitch " My father said while spitting out blood .

I couldn't believe my eyes ; tears started to fall and i could not stop them . 

" STOP !!!  what is wrong with you people or did you forget that I'm in the room with you also " 

My mom just stared at me wide eyed . I spit in her direction she was just scum to me . How could she ; the bitch could die from alcohol poisoning for  all I care.

I called the ambulance to come and get my father. The cops arrested her dumb ass. Since we lived in a small town every one knew every body . so when the cop saw her he gave her a slap on the wrist and some type of warning . 

It's real crazy how she comes at me for every little thing but she can't even keep herself from alcohol for one second . If shes not drunk she isn't sober that's one thing I know for sure . 

Just know  my mom  was one  crazy bitch.  She  needs  to  go to the  G-building .  I found myself back at johns house I haven't been there in about a month . The house was dark all  I wanted to do was take a shower and go to bed . The thing that surprised me when I walked in the bathroom was that John was right where I left him . Sitting on the floor sleeping like a baby with a empty bottle of E&J. 

I poked him a few times with my foot before he finally woke up. "well well I see you had fun " I said pointing at the empty bottle. All he had to say was I guess so. I gave him one more glance before I picked him up and put him in bed. After I did that I went to the bathroom and took a shower . There were mirrors every where so I saw every flaw   every scar I found myself in tears as the bad memories played in my head one at a time .i tried to think of a memory that i had and i found not one. i had to laugh at that  I thought why cry I cried so much; but my tears won't listen. I dropped one for every scar I with hold because I found that there was nothing better to do with life at this moment. 

--------- John

My head was spinning and not in a good way . I don't know how but I found myself in the bathroom; I panicked there she was laying  in the tub. She looked like she was sleeping but  I knew better . I picked her out of the water and started to do CPR. I found myself laughing every now and then but to tell you the truth I was scared out my ass ; i did a little dance when she started to cough up water. We sat in silence for a while I let out a breath of air  then I  said 

" next time you try to kill yourself don't make a mess this big " i looked at the water that was all over the floor and the water that was pouring out of the tub. My carpet by the bath room was soak. Her voice was low and hardly audible but I heard her. "thanks for caring I nearly die and all you care about is the mess I made" with that she started to cry ; at that point I had no idea what to do girls confused me. I knew I had to comfort her but how was the big question.  

---------Arielle 

He stared at me like he was confused  but to tell you truth he always looked like he was trying to figure me out. i did not want his pity i got that a lot i would go to the store and see the people staring at me like I'm sorry about you mother.  to tell you the truth i was tired of the self pity it was really annoying at how they looked at you like they wanted to help you but they didn't know how . like your world was crashing and they knew the key ingredient in helping you get back to normal. Ha I  had to smirked normal what ever that meant. john stared at me like i was crazy but to tell you the truth i was really losing my sanity