Just to See You Smile/ Zach Herron

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Slight mention of anorexia. If you are sensitive to this pls don't read.

Kenzie's POV

Something isn't right, nothing has been right since tour. All of the boys act strange around me, even Zach. I am confused and don't know what to do. As I walk out of the bathroom I stop dead in my tracks because I hear Zach and Jonah talking in a low whisper.

"Zach if you are going to tell her, tell her before I do. I don't want her heart to break." Jonah says. "Jonah I can't do this, I love her too much to do this." Zach says obviously crying.

I run to the room Zach and I share and sit on the bed rubbing my sweaty palms on my pants. Then Zach walks in and the room becomes full of tension and heartache.

"Zach.." I breath out standing up. "Kenzie, can we talk please." he says making my heart fall. I have never heard or seen this much sadness in his voice and eyes.

"Yeah." I say choke on the tears that I am holding back knowing where this conversation is going. "Kenzie, I- I love you so much and I have never stopped loving you. I just I feel like I need space to breathe you know." Zach's words break me, shatter me even. "Zach..." I trail off as a tear rolls down my cheek. I sit down on the bed and put my head between my knees. Zach sits beside me and comforts me, I don't understand why. I stand up ready to talk.

"Why Zach? What did I do wrong? I will fix it lease, I can't lose you Zach. I can't lose you." I say through sobs. "Kenzie you won't lose me I promise." he says trying to hug me, but I back up. "Then why do I feel like I already have." I say turning and running to Jack's room.

"I want to go home." I cry into his chest. He knew what had happened so he didn't ask he just let me cry. After about thirty minutes all the boys, except for Zach had came into Jack's room and just enveloped me into a group hug.

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I had packed my stuff and was at the door waiting for Jack. They boys and I had said our goodbyes and I was leaving to an apartment close by with Bella. "Goodbye Kenzie." Jonah said crying. "Jo don't cry I literally live a block away." I say hugging him. "Is... is Zach even going to tell me goodbye." I ask looking behind Jonah. "Kenzie, look at me. I know you love him, but you need to give him space, and don't try to hide the fact that you are hurting I can see it clearly." Jonah says grabbing my shoulders. "Okay." I say holding back the tears that are fighting so hard to be freed.

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It has been a week, I barely eat now. Bella tries to make me but I just deny food now. I have fallen apart without Zach. I haven't visited the boys like I promised I would. Jack keeps texting me and asking me if I'm okay, I always answer with 'Of course you big dummy.' Why do I have to lie to him? I shouldn't be this much of a mess. I am scared for me, for my wellbeing, for the boys, for my family. I am terrified even.

"Kenzie, please open the door." Bella says through my locked door. "Zach, he is here." she says making me jump up. I open the door and she stares in shock at how much weight I have lost. "Kenzie...." she trails off as I brush past her.

I walk into the living room and see Zach. By instinct I run into his arms. I cry on his shoulder and we stand there like that forever. I was still crying when Zach put me down and got a good look at me. "Have you been eating?" he asks making me look up at him. "I have broken you, I have ruined the beautiful spirt. I am so sorry Kenzie." Zach says sitting down and putting his head in his hands. "You haven't broke me Zach, this is my fault. It is the price I have to pay." I sitting in front of him. "I love you Zach but please go you need your space, and I can not watch you be hurt because of me." I say turning and leaving to my room.

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