Just to See You Smile/ Zach Herron

34 (AU)

*TRIGGER WARNING*
Also everyone this is and Alternate Universe what happens in this chapter never happened.
Also have you heard "In My Blood"? IT IS MY LIFE

Kenzie's POV

I am sitting in my bathroom floor, my head resting on my knees and tears streaming down my face. The hate is everywhere now, fans are blaming it all on me. I know they want me to be strong but what strength is left is fighting for Zach.

I am slowly becoming weaker, I haven't eaten in weeks. I haven't even seen my own family. I am done fighting and I'm sorry.

Dear boys,

I love you all so much, but the hate has become to much to handle. I'm sorry I couldn't be strong for you guys, and I'm sorry that I have to leave this way. I never wanted to say goodbye like this. I love you Jack, you were and always will be one. Tell Isla that I love her please, and tell mom that she is amazing and I will miss her. Jonah, I will miss our J and K talks about Harry Potter over coffee. I hope you will find another coffee in the middle of the night buddy, I'm sorry J. Corbyn, you will always be my only and favorite bean. Tell Christina I love her, okay? I will miss you Bean. Daniel, I may not have much to say to you, but keep that amazing smile of yours. Treat Bella right, I don't want to see her hurt. Zach, gorsh I have so many things to say to you. I love you so, so, so much. You have given me so much happiness , and I can't thank you enough. I will miss you the most, sorry Jack but its true. I love you all so much and I will miss you so much.

- Kenzie

I finish the letter and take it to the boys' house while they are at rehearsals.

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I get home and go to my room, locking my door, and heading to my bathroom. I sit down in my empty tub and stare and the ceiling. For a second I start to hum "A Little Too Much" to myself as I grab a razor.

Breathe in. Put razor to wrist. Breathe out. Cut the wrist. I feel the pain flow through my body, and then I hear a voice screaming my name. Then my door is tore down and Zach runs in.

"Kenzie, I'm here. I'm here ok, stay with me please." Zach says crying as he holds pressure to my wrist.

"Z-ach," I choke out putting my hand on his face, "j-just let me go." I say tears fogging my vision.

"Kenzie, no. I'm not letting you go I love you so much." he says kissing my forehead and pushing the hair from my face.

Zach's POV

I am sitting with Kenzie and holding her, praying the ambulance gets here faster.

"Zach.." she whispers getting weaker.

"Yes Kenzie?" i ask looking down at her.

"I see it, its so beautiful." Kenzie says grabbing my hand.

"Kenzie no please. Look at me, Kenz, look at me." i say starting to cry again grabbing her face.

"I'm sorry Zach." she says as i watch all the life and light drain from her body.

"Kenzie no please. Kenzie I can't lose you." i say bringing her closer to me and hugging her to my chest. Her arms lay limp. Just then the love of my life died, right there in my arms.

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