𝙁𝙇𝘼𝙈𝙄𝙉' 𝙃𝙊𝙏 𝘾𝙃𝙀𝙀𝙏𝙊𝙎 ! ⁽ ʲᵒˢʰ ᵒᵛᵃˡˡᵉ ⁾

( eleven | real life )

sometimes i regret ever trying to being funny. it always ends bad. like for example, right now. i had to leave finn amd josh in the livingroom while i go silently cry in the bathroom. i know they would never probably kill me if they saw me but still that's a scary thing to have your life threatened by stranger. i'm just probably overreacting again.

it's not even that big of an issue, it's just hate. simple as that. but for some reason this comment made me cry. i don't think it was the death threat, i think it was the part of not being good enough for josh or finn for that matter. they're succesful influencers while i'm stuck being a college drop out and a failed wannabe youtuber. they deserve so much better.

"kota?" joshs voice and the light knocking on the door brought me back from my thoughts.

"ye-" my voice cracked causing me to cringe. i stood up quickly and fixed my face in the mirror, sniffling before replying again. "yeah?"

"are you okay?" josh asked. i unlocked the door and opened it, josh looking down at me with a concerned expression.

"totally. all good." i smiled forcefully, walking passed him to go back into the livingroom but josh moved infront of me to stop me.

"dakota?" he asked again, his eyebrow raised.

"why are you even friends with me?" i asked, my voice quivering as tears fell down my face. josh sighed and pulled me into a hug, awkwardly rubbing my back in an attempt to comfort me.

"because you're, like, the coolest person i know. and you make me- a-and everyone else, happy when you're around. you don't need to be some rich celebrity to be friends with someone. look at finn and me. i'm not a celebrity but finn keeps me around for some reason." josh laughed lightly. "and besides you're the most badass person. if we ever see that person in public, you would beat their ass with your cool as fuck sword."

"fuck yeah, i'll kill bill their ass!" i yelled loudly. i pretended to have a sword in my hands and swung it around making sword noises.

"and she's back!" finn yelled from the livingroom.

"fuck yeah, no haters gonna get to me!" i called back, running and jumping onto the sofa. finn and i pretended to be in a sword fight, making the sound effects too. "c'mon, josh!" josh rolled his eyes before joing us, grabbing a pillow and hit tingme, knocking me over onto the couch. finn shoved him onto me and i was pinned under him. we looked into eachother eyes, i felt an urge to kiss him but i pushed it away. he smiled, he was so cute when he smiled, i thought to myself which made me smile. he helped me back up and we went to go fight finn.

"wait, that's no fair. that's two against one. penalty!" finn screamed, trying his best to stop us. josh and i looked at eachother and nodded, hitting him with the pillows multiple times. finn made a very dramatic death scene, sliding down the wall while groaning before slumping over with his tongue hanging out of his mouth.

"finally, now we can kiss!" josh yelled out, wrapping his arm around my waist and bringing me closer. i blushed, my mind racing with 'what the hell is happening?' he brought his face closer to mine and my heart was beating so fast it hurt.

"ew, no." finn yelled as he opened his eyes and stood back up, hitting josh in the head before we got too close. the boys got into a seperate fight while i stood there starstruck, wondering if josh was actually going to kiss me if finn hadn't stopped us. or if that was the plan?

a/n : 0-100. also twenty one pilots is back and now i have meaning to my life again. :-)