3 months later...
it's been three months since ethan comitted suicide.
three painful fucking months.
i won't eat
i can't sleep
my moms worried about me
but i don't care
i don't care about anything anymore
i lost him
and it's all my fault
he's the reason i was happy.
his family hasn't contacted me at all
i wasn't invited to his funeral
they all hate me.
i was sitting in bed drawing a picture of me and ethan getting married when my phone rung.
i looked at the caller id and saw it was grayson
i sat up and immediately answered.
hello
hi y/n
hi...grayson
he sounded so much like ethan...
uhm. can you come over it's about ethan.
uh yeah sure when?
now
i arrived at the dolan household in under 10 minutes something about ethan could be vital
i knocked on the door and soon i saw cameron answer
"hi come in", she said in a depressed voice.
cameron was usually the funny and sarcastic one this is the complete opposite. ethans death really took a tole on the family.
i quietly stepped in very nervous for whatever would happen.
i looked up and saw all of them in front of me.
"the only reason you're here is because ethan would have wanted you to see this...even if we want nothing to do with you since this is all your fault", his mom rudely told me.
i wouldn't be rude back. i have to keep peace for ethan.
she handed me ethans phone. which still had the case with a picture of him and i on it.
i felt a small tear drop and i quickly wiped it away.
i saw a video was on the screen and i hesitantly presses play.
......
he about notes. and one he left for me in our spot.
our spot!
his mom snatched the phone away.
"that's it. we cropped out the next scene because it shows our son killing himself because of you", his mom said.
i nodded, quietly muttered a thank you and left.
i drove to me and ethans spot and got out all the memories coming back.
i slowly walked up the hill and to our tree.
i laughed seeing all of our bubblegum packs lying around.
flashback
"okay wanna see who can chew gum the longest?". ethan said with excitement.
"you're on!"
we each took all the gum out of our packs put them in our hand and counted
1..2..3..GO
flashback over..
i miss him so much.
i saw our initials in the tree
and all i thought about was him...
but i remembered what i was here for.
i went to the little hole we found in the ground and sure enough it was there. i opened the note and it was folded and on it i saw my name and began to read.
for y/n....
listen..what happened to us really broke me. i thought we were meant to be together. i thought you loved me. but thinking comes from not knowing right ? i can't believe we really broke apart. i wanted to marry you. to love you. to make love to you. to have children with you. to get a house with you. buy our first family car with you. go on vacations with you. i wanted to have a future with you. but i guess you had other plans...i want you to know that i still love you and i always will love you. don't let anyone tell you different. not even my family. i'm sorry i had to leave you like this. i'm sorry i caused you pain. but there's no way i saw myself living without you. i love you y/n. remember ethan and y/n forever...
i love you princess live your life to the fullest.
i have to kill myself to be with him. i won't be without him. i can't be...
