you just couldn't. you didn't want to fake your feelings towards him. you knew you were hurting him more by acting like you loved him and not actually "loving" him.
you texted him about 15 minutes ago asking if he can come over so you could talk.
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"fuck", you thought to yourself. you were aware how difficult it was going to be for the both of you, he's a sweetheart but, you couldn't. you knew he needed to find someone better for him.
about 2 minutes later you were interrupted out of your thoughts when you heard the doorbell ring.
you got up and opened the door to see a shivering Ethan.
you forgot there was a current snowstorm in the works. "oh my gosh", you began to think. Ethan's going to leave here heartbroken and freezing. You felt terrible, and that your timing was so off.
You moved aside to let him in
"Hey beautiful", he said walking in while rubbing his arms and blowing on his hands from time to time. "It's so cold out there".
You just nodded your head as he took off his boots, and hung his coat up.
"What's wrong princess? What did you want to talk about?".
Your face looked as if you were about to cry, your self-consciousness was consuming you, and you felt in your heart Ethan deserved a better girl for him that you felt wasn't you.
"I'm so sorry Ethan". You said shakily.
"What happened y/n?". He asked concerned.
"Nothing happened".
"Well, what's causing you to look so upset and down baby?". He asked placing his hand on your shoulder and beginning to glide it down your back in means to comfort you.
You moved back from his touch. "I-I just can't do this anymore".
"W-What do you mean you can't do, this?". He raised his brow in question.
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"I cannot date you anymore Ethan".
i looked at ethan. he was staring into my eyes on the verge of tears. he looked frozen. and i could see the heartbreak right through him.
he suddenly broke down and ran down besides me on his knees and he grabbed my hands.
"baby please, i'm so sorry i'll change i-i'll do anything you want me too. i'll spend more time with you. i'll buy you more stuff. i-''.
"ethan stop".
"baby what did i do". he said crying.
"you didn't do anything ethan it's me. now stand up".
"look at me". i demanded.
he stared at me his eyes red and puffy his nose was turning red i just couldn't.
"ethan i don't wanna hurt you anymore. you're a good guy. now granted at a certain point and time in our relationship i was head over heels in love with you. but now i just don't feel that spark between us. which only means we're not meant to be with each other forever. you'll always hold a special spot in my heart being as though you were my first love. now i want you to go out there find a lady that loves you more than you love me. and have her babies and grow a nice family. i'm sorry ethan".
he rubbed his hands through is hair. and let out a deep breath
"bye y/n, and if you do end up regretting this don't come running back to me. i did every thing i could to please you and i loved you with all my heart but you have the audacity to make me come out here in the snow to tell me you don't love me anymore. you're a cold hearted bitch and i deserve better. keep my gifts and hoodies to you. cause i want you to remember me through something cause you'll never see me again. and i'll make sure of that".
he slammed my door and got in his car to leave.
i sat on my couch thinking about what he said.
he called me a cold hearted bitch.
i was crying because i'm starting to regret everything i said. i do love him and i do want him. but it's to late now. a few minutes later i get a text from grayson.
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was it that bad. i'm sorry ethan. even though i'll never get you back.
