Ash POV
After that phone call and all that shit that happened days ago, I've been more and more depressed. I miss my kids so much it physically hurts. Dime has been 'taking care' of it. I know how she is. She's probably not doing it the legal way but who cares anymore? I know I don't because I've done a lot of illegal shit for the wrong reasons. She's doing them for the right reasons. To save our kids. I mean I have been trying but I get dead ends. Each time I get so close, I miss it. I lose. It's like playing Russian Roulette.
As I pondered in my raging thoughts, I thought of how good Dime has been to me lately. She treats me right, we aren't as dysfunctional as before. She accepts me, but she's been at the doctor back and forth. It's bad I know it is. I don't think anything is really wrong. She just hasn't been her self lately. It's like somebody cracked her conscience. I don't speak to her about it, she'll be uncomfortable with it.
"Babe" I waved my hand in her face. She had this unreadable expression and she was scratching her arm up really bad.
"Dime" I put my hand on hers and she still was blanked. "Damn Domonique!" I yelled this time and she looked at me "I didn't hear you my bad. There was something on my arm" She sighed and I looked at her "Dime there wasn't anything on ur arm baby" I was concerned and confused as hell. "I uh well I could've- Can we talk about something else babe?" She asked and I look at her arm and It was bloody "yes let me clean you up " I said just above a whisper aware of her state of delusion. She nodded and pulled off her shirt. She had bruises everywhere. Self-inflicted. "Baby what's all this?" I asked now more concerned than ever. She looked at me as if she was scared to say "Tell me, please" I demanded more than asked. "There was something crawling on me and gnawing on my skin. I tried to remove it" She quickly turned around in embarrassment. We'll talk more about it later.
"After you clean me up I have to go handle some business with Cree" She smiled weakly as I pour alcohol on her fresh wounds. She hissed at the collision of substance and her open flesh. Soon after I finished aiding her, she hugged me and kissed my temples. "I love you. Baby don't worry, I'm going now okay " "but I wanna come too "I whined and she sighed and shook her head no and I silently protested and she gave in. " fine"
I pushed my toes into my Nike slides and threw on a muscle shirt and joggers, soon after I got dressed I threw my dreads into a messy bun on top of my head and watched a pouty face Dime to the car. "What's wrong munch" She turned to look at me "We are going to go look where our kids are staying. We can't barge in there we have to wait a day, that's when we can pull them out. If we can't today we will keep trying. I got this Ash, I promised you I'd get them back. I'm so sorry man" She sighed sticking the keys in the ignition "It's not your-" "Yes it is. If I would've stayed in that hospital we would have our babies. Admit you blame me, Ash, I can see it in your eyes" She rubbed her hands down her face pulling me out of the driveway. I do blame her, but she doesn't need to know that. "I don't blame you. I promise"I swore to her. "Sure babe," She said just above a whisper. The guilt is tearing her apart and I feel bad because there is nothing I can do to stop it.She's my wife and I don't know what to do. I suck man, she is always there for me and supports me and I'm not treating her the way she treats me. She probably thinks the love is one-sided when It's not, but I haven't been doing good to prove it to her.
~30 minutes later~
"Babe we are here at Debbie's house. See those guards? They come every day to keep an eye on Debby and the girls. There are six guards in total." She clarified and I nodded. "I found out who the head is that got Debby to take my kids" I stated "Trust me when I say the person you thought called you isn't him. That nigga dead, like a dead.It's Lola's dad, aka you're sisters father"Dime pressed and my eyes widened. It can't be. No, it can't be him. I just know it can't, then I saw him walk out of Debby's house. I wonder why he wanted them. "Come on we got to go babe. we will be back tomorrow" Dime said pulling off
Dime POV
"Baby, I'm going to take a nap. Can you make me us some dinner? I cooked last night."I said laying on the couch.I know I got her worried because of the spiders, I saw in my arms today that weren't there. I just really do not want to tell her. She will judge me and maybe even divorce me and not let me see our kids. "Okay" She smiled going into the kitchen
Then it started happening. "What's Dominique, When are you going to tell her that you've lost your mind huh? So pathetic, you know you'll lose her" I was seeing myself sitting in front of me and this what myself said to me. I blinked "YOu're not real, You're not real" Then I opened my eyes when she was gone then as soon as I got comfortable her voice popped up in my head. "Thought you could get rid of me that fast think again". I to claw at my head "You are not real" I said over and over till I felt blood pouring down my cheek. Then I felt something nibbling at my toes and looked down and looked down and it was rats. I screamed and frantically beat on my feet and ankles until they were nearly swollen.
"Dime baby!What's wrong" She held my head to her chest and pinned my arms to my side. "There was rat's on my feet Ash. You have to believe me, there they were-" I looked down and I was completely fine just bruised a bit. "Dime what's-" "Nothing I'm fine" I ran upstairs into the guest room and locked the door. I jumped in the bed "I'll lose her if I tell her" I spoke to myself then I burst into tears, I got to learn how to control myself, Especially for when I get our kids back
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So what do you think is wrong with Dime?
Should Ash blame DIme?
It's sad how Dime thinks she'll lose Ash over whatever she has.
It's bad that Ash doesn't know how to comfort her wife?
Lola's father?
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