Dime POV
I woke up next to Ashley holding me as if I would leave again. She was asleep, she had slept with a smile on her face. This is what I missed. I just couldn't help but look at her. She looks happy but is she really. "Do I have sleep in my eyes" She lifted her eyebrow with a playful smirk on her face. I shook my head no. I honestly don't know if I can trust her again. I'm not angry but I am upset highly upset. I don't know if I will ever trust her again. I mean yes, I've cheated, but hey that was in the past and they were one-time meaningless things, this is a full-fledged affair. She loves Temper, and there's a part of me that knows I can't ever compete with that. I've thought long and hard, I honestly think that we should separate, find out what we really want, we have kids now. I do not want my kids, walking around thinking that since their mother didn't work out that love doesn't have a shot. I love Ashley, but I know her heart ain't here with me 100%. "Ash...baby" I sighed. I sat up. She sat up and put every inch of her attention on me. "I think that we-" She smashed her lips into mines before I could finish the sentence.
I couldn't help but fall into her compulsion, behind this kiss. I need to stop this-"fuck"I let out a low audible moan. This needs to stop. I use the little force I did have to gently but forcefully pull away. "I think that we need time apart, to figure us out. You love another and I do not want to be something you regret."I sighed, honestly I really wanted to cry, but yet I am not mad, nor angry, not even the slightest bit sad. She had tears forming in her eyes. "But I love you" She cried, fiddling with her fingertips and looking down.
"But you love her too, I want you to figure that out. When you come to a conclusion about who you want, give me a holla."I said shaking my head placing my palms on top of hers.
She sniffled and laughed. "Remember when we use to fuck all our problems away, in high school?" I had laughed along with her and nodded vigorously. "Oh yes, I remember every last detail vividly, I also remember us talking a lot to each other about everything, things we loved, hated, desired, our aspirations in life, things that upset us. Those were always my favorite things about us, even, when we broke up. You always wound up right with me"My face had got heated reminiscing with her.
"what happened to us?"She asked. "You blamed me, you hated me, you held so much hate in your heart. I single handily pulled a bullet from your back while you were pregnant to save you my love and our children, so many times I have come to your rescue. We don't lead typical lives" I explained. "I did blame you, I did hate you for a while and I guess that's why I drifted away from you."She admitted.
"Then why didn't you just be upfront and talk about it, you are my wife, we are married, we should be able to talk about this kind of thing" I explained. She looked down, "You're right, I'm sorry."
"Ashley we need to-" She cut me off, "Dime, I love you. I do not love her. You are my one that is all mines. I fucking love you. Your eyes, your short hair cute, your lips, your nose, even that birthmark on your right but cheek shaped like a crown, your battle scars you've obtained saving my tail, just I love you. ALL OF YOU. "She said taking her ring off. "This ring is a symbol of what we promised, of how we felt about one another, about what we shared before we were married. We've gone through way more than this, We're stronger together. What are you without me? A half of incomplete heart when the other half is sitting right in front of you trying to love you"She sighed, she then slid her ring back on her finger. How could I leave now, that was so sweet.
"I-" She cut me off, "If you must move forward with your,-" I then cut her off.
"Oh shut the fuck up"I grabbed her throat and pulled her close to me. I leaned, in slowly, biting her lip and pulling down, to grant myself access and I slid my tongue into her mouth. She gripped the sheets on her sides and let herself become undone. I smiled into the kiss and use my hands to slide her shirt off. Her pants were already off. she then flipped the positioned and was on top of me. She kneeled down and sucked on my neck, biting down gently grazing her teeth over the flesh of skin. She massaged my breast thoroughly as she continued her assault. She ripped my sports bra off with one motion of her wrist.
She places light, soft, eager kisses down the middle of my chest, sliding her tongue and let her teeth graze my now erect nipples. She bit down on the right and massaged the left between her fingertips. She then continued this to the left and her kisses soon got more rough and wet as she placed them down until she reached my navel. Her eyes scanned up my body until her eyes finally met mine. Her eyes were glistening, as she looked up at me. She yanked my boxers off ripping them in the process. I heard faint knocks on the door and tapped her before she could continue any farther. "The kids want us, they are up now"I laughed. She let out a huff and fought the sheets before getting up and walking to the door and picking up Peyton. I had covered up in the blankets and stood up to get the robe before getting Ky. "Morning momma"She giggled, her cheeks had a rosy tint as I picked her up.
"Are you mommy staying together?"She frowned and buried her face in my chest. I was a bit taken back by the question but I had to clear this up for her. "We're not going anywhere"I smiled tickling her. Her loud laughter was heard through the entire house. "does that answer your question"I said kissing her cheek, she nodded. "Put me down, I need to go say good morning to mommy," She said wiggling out of my arms and running to Ash in the kitchen jumping on her head like a monkey. I spoke too soon, Peyton was wrapped around my neck, just as soon as A'kyrah ran to ash. "Hey prince" I laughed "good morning, I love you" He yelled in my ear, he cupped his hand around my ear as if he tried to say it quietly bt took my eardrum out. "Buddy, you just made me go deaf for a second"He blushed and covered his mouth. "I sorry" I put him down. "It's cool, I love you too" I ruffled his hair. His hair is freaking long.
I looked up to Ash smiling at me and Pey, I smiled at her turned my attention back to Pey
Everything isn't fixed but It'll get there, I still got the Elle situation to handle
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