Just my thoughts

Hi plz help me

I'm trying I'm trying so hard not to get jealous.  I'm tying not to be sad.  I'm trying to make you think it's all ok.  It's not it is really not.  But I don't want you to know that I don't want to be in your way of happiness.  But I just can't do it I'm not ting to try to talk to you talk to me if you want IDC at this point.  You can not be my friend if you want I'm sure that would be a lot easier then having to deal with me.  I'm just glad I have her.  She makes me happy.  You don't really anymore.  Once in a while you do.  But not much anymore.  And I'm so happy your making new friends.  But as your doing this you arnt talking to me as much anymore.  I can never hang out with you on the weekends.  And they are always over.  I just don't understand.  And if your reading this and think it's you.  It probly is.  But I still love you.  I just wish things we're the way there were before all this. Well byeee