Just my thoughts

Im back

I'm back and emotional as ever I have been let down to say the least I thought she would wanna hang out and I understand her wanted to hang out with her girlfriend but that doesn't make it hurt any less. I want her to be happy that why I keep on saying it's fine but it actually really hurt me. And on a unrelated note today I had a emotional breakdown I saw that he checked out my page and I had to see his face but I regretted it instantly I miss him so much and when I saw his eyes my heart completely shattered those eyes used to look at me as a friend even as a girlfriend at one point they used to love me. Now there just full of hatred towards me. But it's all worth it I saved his life stopped him from hurting himself. That's all I can say to myself to keep my self from drowning in my sadness.