Violets P.O.V
I have never heard anyone tell me the words "I love you" because one I'm deaf clearly and two no one does. Not even my friends and family have said these words to me. I keep dreaming of the possibility of someone actually saying or even better signing those words to me. One day Violet one day. I'm not sure what I want truly because I can just get a cohlear thing or on one of the hearing aids that my dear friend have.
The events that occured in one small hospital room yesterday with a cancerous little girl and the guy of my dreams have left me speechless. Nice joke Violet. I so badly wanted to kiss Frank but how am I supposed to? The last guy I kissed was my ex-boyfriend Marco who may I just add is a very sloppy kisser. Gabi sort of blessed the idea of me dating her brother which makes me really happy.
Now I know this sounds crazy as fuck but I think I'm in love. They say that when your in love with someone you just feel right like a perfect match type of right like we're two puzzle pieces that just fit. I've never been in love with someone I've dated. I was always told by my older (and bitchier) sister that since I'm so drop dead gorgeous (her words not mine) that the only thing the boys I'll date will love is my face. My Mom also warned me before coming here that if I do decide to date anyone around here that it will have to not be a hearing person because apparently they'll take advantage of me because I'm deaf. But I don't think Frank is like that because he didn't have to learn sign language but he did and that makes me really happy.
I always tend to think deeply about things that trouble me such as love when I'm alone and I am in my room right this second. I want love heck I think we all need love to have that reasurrence that someone out there would take a bullet for you. I wanted that like right now and even though I'm like still young I just want to be able to know that I can feel it. I sit up in my bed and realize that I need to be there for my sad friends who I haven't really talked to since I've been with Frank like 24/7. So I get up and put some decent clothes on and I literally march to Andrea's room to talk to her. I push the door open and I imediately close the door when I see the bare back of the guy I'm guessing is Andrea's crush.
I always had had a habit of walking in on people doing something or just simply barging into someone's room without knocking. This was one demonstration of my habit. I knocked on the door even though I'm pretty sure Andrea wouldn't even bother to wear her hearing piece after what I just witnessed. The door swung open and the boy I saw earlier stood there shirtless and he waved awkwardly to me. I stand up on my tippy toes to look past his shoulder and I see Andrea, head in her hands.
"Could you call Andrea, " I sign and mouth at the same time and he nods and trys out sign language by nodding his right fist as if to say "yes". He turns to Andrea and she stands up from the sheets and luckily she's clothed. She smiles at the boy and puts a hand to his chest pushing him back into the room closing the door for him.
"Would you like to explain what I just saw?,'' I sign. I had always wondered how long it will take for Andrea to realize that it's okay to be alone and that you don't have to depend on love. Then again this being said from the girl who's never felt or experienced love, I could be wrong. We walk down the stairs and into the living room and I sit down on the couch and she sits on the couch across from me.
"That was the boy I like you saw, his name is Victor but I call him Max," she signs and I sigh. Please God I know I never go to church for many good reasons but please don't let her tell me that she had sex with a guy that she'll soon regret later.
"Please don't tell me you had sex with him Andy," I sign and her eyes go wide and she shakes her head rapidly. What?
"Oh my God no! I like him but not that much Violet, look," she starts signing and stops for a moment to run her hand down her face in a stressful way. "I ran into him last night at the bar-Violet don't look at me like that I was upset- he asked me what was up and I was like nothing and then he kissed me out of nowhere. We just slept in the same bed."
