i wonder if anyone still loves me
with the stretch marks scarred on my thighs
with my broken spine,
bend on the right side
and
if i make love to your body
do you want to see this tummy
looking a little bit extra
bigger than the size of your hands
i hope i'll never feel guilty after the second scoop of ice cream
and because of that thoughts i'll be dying of hunger
starve myself forever isn't good for the behavior
i am the girl that would eat her dad's extra leftovers because he couldn't finish it anymore
i am the girl who would still feel hungry after a third round of sushi
then i'll stalk some girls in bikini and i killed myself with a little bit of
insecurities, trying to fit with the society minds that being skinny and pretty gets everything they want
but i am not skinny and not what you want me to be but i think i already have what i need
and you said
"not that i love you less if you gain weight, its the other way around."
after all, the food doesn't turn out so bad
i'll take extra cheese and chocolate cakes after dinner
another number is add up to the size of my jeans
that's what makes me happier
and i guess nothing else matters
than being confident in your own skin
mother said
stretch marks is a definition of thunders flowing through my body because i am so powerful that i embrace my own skin
my spine isn't perfect
so does the tree in spring time in June but it still standing there blooms of flowers and leaves
so don't be afraid to grow a little bit thicker because that's what men loves the most
remember we're not here to impress men or people so be you.
and you see
i am a woman and my body is a temple and i would not change a thing
i will love my body, my big thighs
thick tummy, stretch marks and my broken spine.
