The Greatest Stand After The Deepest Fall

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I thought we're sailing safe but one day I woke up alone in this boat.

We were doing great. And it made me think we were okay. Pero ang totoo, hindi. Hindi pala.

Did I just assumed things? Fu**.

My head starts to ache for I'm starting to overthink, again.

After surviving the long distance 'almost' relationship for eight months, nandito tayo sa sitwasyong ito.

Oh wait, let me correct it. Nandito AKO sa sitwasyong ito.

"Hey, bakit hindi mo na naman naubos iyang pagkain mo?" tanong ni Dyan, workmate ko.

"Busog na ako e." I answered at pilit na ngumiti. Yung tipo ng isang pilit na ngiti na hindi mo aakalaing peke.

I mastered this art of making face and altering emotions when I have to. Swear.

"Isang linggo ka nang ganyan a. Malakas ka namang kumaen dati." dagdag pa na komento nya.

"Diet? Tama, diet ako." pagdadahilan ko na lang.

Good thing, I've always been good at hiding my feelings. Sa iyo lang naman ako naging all out open e. Kase iba ka, I fell for you so darn hard. Pero.. Hays.

Napailing na lang si Dyan at napunta na ang atensyon sa iba.

Hindi ko napigilang tingnan ang phone ko, silently hoping with my fingers crossed.

But still, there is no any sign of you.

Dalawang linggo na hindi mo man lang inoopen ang messages ko sa messenger, hindi nirereplyan ang texts ko, hindi mo man lang sinasagot ang mga tawag ko.

Two weeks. And I think I'm starting to lose my sanity. Swear.

What happened, Jace?

Gulung-gulo ako. Takang-taka.
But I have to be tough. Kahit deep inside, all my walls seem to crush.
Fu**. Masyado pang maaga para masaktan pero swear, masakit na talaga.

Pero kalma pa. I know you, I just know you so well. I have to trust you. I have to trust this love.

I opened our convo and reread some of my messages.

Super busy sa school? Dami po bang requirements? Ajaa! Fighting, my love! Para sa future! I'll be working well here too, for us! Mua! I love you, always and for a lifetime.

Still busy? Aral well ka lang then dyan, Jace na mahal na mahal ko.  Support kita. If 'di ka na busy, paramdam agad a? Ready na ako magpalambing, este, manlambing. Hihihi. I love you. Mwaaaa!

Grabe na iyang mga prof a. Hindi ka na nakakapagparamdam. Hmhm. Basta, don't make pabaya sa sarili mo a. I LOVE YOU. <3

Hey, I miss you so bad. Pwede bang rest ka muna sa ACADS? Pwedeng pahiram ng time, kahit na one hour? Okay lang kahit na 10 mins na lang. Hehehe. Pero 'di bale nalang nga muna, sige aral well. Guguluhin kita if 'di ka na busy. <3

Uy, super miss na kita. Dahil dyan, ililista ko na lahat ng kanta na dapat mong kantahin para makabawi sa sobrang pagkamiss ko sa iyo. I won't take no. Peace na agad! I love you.

But you keep on ignoring me.

Jace, are you okay?

May nangyari ba sa iyo?

Nag-aalala ako sa iyo, dear.

I'm just a chat, text or call away.

Don't hesitate to give me a ring, my love.

Jace, I miss you.

Masyado ka naman pong nagpapa miss. Swear, miss na miss na kita.

My love, I'll be waiting here on the other side of the line.

Why aren't you answering my calls? Sobrang nag aalala na ako.

Jace my love, okay ka lang ba?

Miss na miss na miss na miss na po kita.

Queen koooo!

Paramdam ka naman po.

:(

Nakakabaliw.

And here I am again, typing you another message, hoping.

J...

Ja...

Jac...

Jace...

I love you.

Please, just please, magparamdam ka naman po.

Message delivered.

I sounded desperate, I know. But you can't blame me, I love you. I just truly do.