Lost Gems

The nights.

"Explain to me your situation" she was asked,
With a straight face she smashed the hearts;
"My nights are often so cold and lonely ,
In the pit of darkness, with silent sobs,
I lay my head on the soft pillows,
All the memories I tried burying, now finds a way out,
Those joyous moments once spent with a full heart,
Now is breaking me into bits and causing some sad attacks,
When I look around my surroundings, I see people smiling,
And I think I've grown up so much,
For I've started judging if they mean those hearty smiles,
I hope those smiles reach their hearts,
They often ask me:
"Why don't you show up and chum up? "
But I just cannot appear with a million dollar smile,
And pretend my castle is strong,
The one who created me knows that my world is crumbling under my feet,
Such a painful phase of life,
When reality sinks in,
I prefer nothing but my self and my thoughts,
Though I abhor crying my eyes out,
And hate feeling weak, soulfully weak,
These tears are the only stairs which,
Helps me climb down from my thoughts,
Though my tears draw dark circles around my eyes,
They have surely made my dark situation quite bright,
I understand there are souls who go through more than me,
But I lose myself in pondering over my thoughts,
I don't think anything can replace my loss,
Even if it is replaced,
That can never reach the old love,
For certain things cab never be replaced,
And certain memories can never be erased,
What the naked eyes have seen is seen,
Alas! what the hearts have felt have been felt,
No matter what precious pearls the future hides,
The lost gems of my past are forever lost,

I think paradise is only a bliss,
Because in it gathers all the lost souls,
Along with the companionship of the holder of your secrets and his deep love" .

Baarakallahu Lee walakum❤