Lost Gems

BEHIND THE THROBS AND STINGS💔

This excruciating pain has settled in me,

Anguish, hurt and pain are abiding happily in my bosom,

Who knew the days spent with you would also turn into memories?

You definitely were beyond a father,

Your words are penetrated into my heart,

Your moments of silence are carved in my mind,

Is this how depression is supposed to be?

Waking up every morning and facing a life without you,

Every second when I realize your absence, I turn into a walking dead,

Millions of condolences but still a heavy heart,

If my tears were to be gathered , they would've filled a valley,

This new phase of life is different,

A death of your beloved can shatter you into bits,

Reality seems so mendacious!

All praise be to the one who made us capable of imagination,

If not for it, I'll be the weak broken soul,

This life doesn't make sense,

This world is cruel,

For how long can people maintain fake smiles?

It's depressing to know that I'm one of those people,

Cover all the painful wounds and plaster a smile on my face!

This sorrow has truly plunged deep down in my chest and it has implanted itself,

Why can't happiness last?

Has life just begun?

My father wasn't just a man who helped me,

His words were the light for my cave,

His instructions were my life,

His happiness was my ultimate bloom of life,

Yes! You did not leave me! Rather you're waiting for me,

Your death isn't our seperation, it instead is the very mean for the reunion of our souls,

There shall surely come a day, when we can hold hands and stand infront of the one who nourished the "father and daughter " bond in-between us,

I now sincerely realize that I didn't lose you, I just miss you,

I miss your big presence,

I love your choice of words, I cherished the moments we spent together,

As long as this soul is inside this body, it shall surely value these difficult days,

The one who created us is definitely not blind to our situation,

Every difficulty leads to a blooming paradise,

If happiness is not eternal, so is the phase of sadness,

I realize I deserve being happy,

Because my fearless knight left this world in the most mesmerising way,

He was a man of thahajjudh,

He taught me the value of that salah,

Dad! This seperation is not eternal,

This seperation has opened a new chapter of life for me,

Not a whisper leaves my mouth, but the most high witnesses it,

Seeking contentment is the base of life,

You are not alone in the darkness,

Unknowing to your soul, there is a huge shadow beneath you,

Surely your life is more than loving and missing,

Depression can lead you to chum up the darkness as your companion,

But comprehending the wisdom behind any difficulty can lead you to chum up the creator of darkness,

This excruciating pain isn't hurting me,

It's actually healing me,

I believe there is this peace within my pain,

And following the flow of this pain, peace and silence is a wise choice,

My mouth became dry, no words came out, but no words are even needed,

Comfort exists! Yes it does! Tears don't ruin you, they help you overcome heavy lumps,

Abide happily in worry and grief for they are the keys of jannah,

Your tears raises your status, they are your best friend!

It throbs, it stings! But that is the main part of healing,

Be patient, for words In any language cannot explain the wisdom and rewards behind it,

Be patient, for the one who placed you in this situation, is indeed ultimately capable of turning your life into a blissful garden,

Be patient, Allah is the witness for your tears,

Be patient, Allah is the witness for your silent sobs,

Be patient, Allah will reveal the hidden pearls for you,

Return your heart back to it's Creator, he shall guide it,

With every day that passes by, give glad tidings to your soul!

You are one step ahead in meeting the holder of your secrets,

A life without your beloved will tear you apart but be happy,

Every heartbreak is a blessing,

You don't always need to wipe your tears and pull your sock to live,

SHED YOUR TEARS AND DROWN IN THEM TO SURVIVE FOR YOUR AKHIRAH!

After this sudden drastic change in my life,

What makes me breathe with unlimited happiness, joy and contentment is,

My real love, my everlasting friend, my nourisher and my rabb will never ever die❤

Remember my dad In your prayers 💞
Baarakallahu Lee wala kum ❤