Freeform Struggles

Caged

Tired

It's all I can feel

So tired

I felt so free
Soaring
Happy
Genuinely happy

I forgot that I was intruding
I selfishly forced myself to forget
The freedom
Too enticing

I'm sorry but not sorry
Want to be free but not
Not
Because this is all I know

I feel like I know more
But what do I know
I can't identify

What am I doing wrong
Why do I feel like it's wrong
But why do I feel like its right
Why does the right feel wrong

I intruded
But at the same time
It was fun for all of us
Or was it?

Usually talking helps
But this time

I don't want to talk

It's new and strange

Although it did help me understand
Why I can't stand being with them

Never enough
Or then too much
I can't seem to get it right
But they don't even try to

We can't seem to compromise
After all these years
We don't
Talk the same language

This inner turmoil
No decisions

This is my plea for help
Even though I feel
No need for saving

But I do?