Freeform Struggles

I don't understand

I don't understand

I reach out
And find nothing but scorn

"Why would you do that?
I thought you were smarter"

The relief I felt
From talking with her
So great
So free

I come back
And it's eerie

She's crying
I try to hug her
But am pushed away

I don't understand

I'm trying to make it better
By reaching out
She can help!
She already has!
They turn away

Why?
I'm trying to get better

She said it might be mother's instinct
A thing that
She hasn't used before

Why now?
When I'm reaching out?
Why push me away?

She doesn't even realize
The mistakes she has made
Although in plain sight

I tried to fill the holes
Be a good girl
Be independent

They
Got used to that
Without realizing
The mistakes

Ignoring
That seems to be their answer
I'm screaming
Because nothing i changing

I don't undestand

Why can't they see?