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Rain | Jungkook

|| You, Clouds, Rain by HEIZE 

|| via Spotify

italics are flashbacks

bold words are song lyrics

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Jungkook POV

"Is this what you really want?"

I nod my head furiously at Y/N's question. We're both fuming and angry at each other after our fight just moments before. We were fighting about how our schedules always clashed, me being an idol and Y/N attending university, which happened once in a while but we always got over it.

Until today, when I said something that I wish that I never had said.

"Y/N, you have to understand! My life as an idol is always busy! Always!"

Y/N, who was annoyed, retaliated, 

"I do! I do understand! But do you think that I'm totally stupid? Your hyungs text me, asking if I can come over, not you, them!" She took a deep breath and continued. "I ask them where you were and they told me you were at some cafe and I call you, and you say you're at practice and hang up. Do you know how bad I feel that I know you're lying to me?"

I am surprised that she still remembers that call. I felt bad, but I wanted some time to myself. I knew that if I told her that, she wouldn't believe me, not when we're arguing like this.

Infuriated at her, at myself, at this situation, I mutter, "Sometimes, I wish I never had to see you again."

"Do you really want to never see me again?"

I heard Y/N's voice break from sadness and I wanted to tell her "No, please stay." But my pride and anger got the best of me and I nodded. Y/N broke down completely as she ran around my apartment, collecting all of her belongings hastily. I just stood there, my heart breaking more with every tear that came from her eyes.

As she stepped out the door, Y/N looked at me sadly one last time and whispered, "Goodbye, Jungkook." Then she slammed the door. 

I collapsed onto the floor as I let all of the events and feelings sink in. Guilt, anger, sadness, feelings that made me feel like a freaking bastard. What the hell did I do to the girl I loved and could love?

When I met Y/N, I thought my life was complete. When the company approved of us dating, I thought, wow, my life can't get any better than this. And now, I just ruined that within three seconds.

Rain began to lightly fall from the gray sky, splashing the windows with small drops of water. I looked outside to see Y/N right outside of the apartment building, hunched over in the rain. Her body was shaking, whether it was from the cold or from crying, and I wanted to help her.

Ignoring all of my pride, I grabbed my jacket and ran downstairs to the door. The door swung open to reveal nothing; no trace of Y/N. I looked around to just see people running into buildings to get away from the rain.

Where are you?

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2 years later

Y/N POV

Because it was raining, I thought of you
Because I thought of you, I was like that
It didn't mean anything