Today I had an episode. I feel ashamed for acting this way. I had a full melt down, screaming and partially belligerent. It was only after I threw a half eaten bowl of ramen, stormed out, sat down SOBBING on the side of the road in the grass, stomping back in, taking a 30min shower, scrubbing my kitchen counter to clean my mess, and start organizing a new shelving I got before I realized "hmmm, I feel neurotic." This was followed by hours of feelings altering between numb and agitated. All in all the majority of my day has been gross and I feel so shamed by myself that I'm unable to articulate aloud my remorse.
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Rantings of Borderline Personality Disorder
De TodoThis is me. My pains and issues. The thing I post are true to the best of my knowledge. This is more of a journal. Welcome to my mind. My spider is named D'Vorah Dearest.