They both looked at me waiting for me to speak, my throat was blowing up like a balloon and soon was to collapse erupting with tears.
"two years ago, i moved away, not because of school.. because i was pregnant" my eyes started tearing up blurring my sight. Zoe had her hands on her mouth and joe was sat confused waiting for me to speak on. "I moved so you would'nt find out, I couldnt.. I.." I started crying explosively
Zoe in complete shock "Julie? who was it? who was the guy?" I bite my lip and turned my head away from them I wanted to dodge her question "I was drunk, it wasnt supposed to happen" Zoe hugged me "Julie c'mon i'm your best friend who was it?" I let my tears stream out of control, I knew they'd never forgive me. I looked at Joe who had looked as if something had clicked in his head and then he whispered, loud enough for both zoe and I to hear "it was me.."
Zoe let go of me and stared at Joe, "You.. you.. what?" i qucikly spoke before Joe could "We were drunk, it was at the new years party and it just happened, i'm sorry. i never wanted to and i didnt ever want it to happen again, i'm sorry zoe" She stared at me "so.. you've gotten an abortion?" This is what i didnt want to tell them, but i had to "no.. I had her" Both of their eyes struck me and spoke of desperation "But she wasnt alive when i had her" i exploded in tears again "I cant have this baby, I cant!" I yelled
Zoe's P.O.V
Julie had her face in the couch cushion gasping in tears, I walked to her trying to calm her "what happened?" Julie kept weeping in the couch cushions and Joe was sitting with his hand by his mouth staring at the floor. Julie sat up more and quivered an answer out "It was a still-birth, she was fine through the whole pregnancy but just died, Doctors assumed it was because.. because of my eating disorder, malnutrition, they said i needed to gain weight, i tried i really did, just I.. I cant have this baby.. I can't kill another life" Her eyes pierced me as she spoke, her lips quivered and she moved her trembeling hands over her stomach. I looked at Joe who had tears in his eyes, he moved to Julie and kneeled by her "Julie, I wont let it, you can have this baby i know you can" Julie scremed at him "shut up! i can't! this baby will die! dont both of you hate me for killing her!? Im a failure to life!" Joe placed his hand on her knee "Julie i've loved you since we were kids, and i still love you. you didn't mean anything, Me and Zoe are here for you every step of the way" I smiled at Joes words, I looked at him and his eyes never left hers, he spoke so passionitely and when I looked at Julie she too had her eyes stuck on his, She smiled at him but then her smiled quickly faded and tears stroked her eyes "what if it goes bad" Joe kissed Julie and Julie let him "Dont worry" he said
Julie fell asleep and Joe and I were at the kitchen table in silence both thinking of what had just gone on, "Joe, what does happen if this baby doesnt make it?" he looked at me and bite his cheek "i dont know" I looked at the couch seeing Julie still fast asleep "she'll kill herself, shes had eating problems since school, suicide problems.. i didn't know how bad it could of got." Joe teared up and looked over at her sleeping on the couch, "we need to be with her.. everyday"
