You're Mine (Colby x Reader)

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I couldn't get my mind of what Brennen said. "Guess I am not the only one with more than one secret." He sent it to me 3 days ago and I still couldn't find a way to ignore it. It was like a splinter that you couldn't get out no matter how hard you tried. I just wanted this all to go away, I wanted it to all go back to the kiss. My deep train of was broken a by a soft but stern knocking on my door. I walked slowly not really wanting any human contact at the moment and opened the door. On the other side was a puffy eyed Brennen. I quickly grabbed his hand and pulled him into the apartment before I hugged him tightly. He whispered in my ear "Look what you did to me, how can I forgive you?" I didn't let go but I moved my head so I was looking up at his face, fresh tears were streaming down his face. I felt so bad, he obviously meant the going out with Colby thing. "Brennen look, Colby want to hang out and I repeat "hang out" but when he showed up at my place he directed me to get some nice clothes on and close my eyes while on the drive to Tender Greens, I didn't know it was a date and if I had I would have declined because I had literally just kissed you that day. I am sorry." He sniffled and I couldn't look at him upset anymore, I slightly loosened my grip and looked at the ground. "That's not what I meant, but thanks for explaining that." Not what he meant? "Not what you meant?"

---Brennen's POV---

"Not what you meant?" She looked at me with the same confusion she did when I interrogated her about the self-harm she had inflicted on herself. She starred deep into my eyes as if she were searching for something. "Yea, I mean the self-harm thing. I saw, I told you to not do that to yourself and to call me." Her faced dropped, it was no longer confused but instead on the brink of tears, I held her in my arms as she tried to cover the scars left behind. I didn't know what triggered it but I refused to leave until I knew she was ok and if that meant sleeping on her couch tonight, or her coming back to my place and sleeping in my bed with me I didn't care.

---Flashback--- ((Y/N) POV)

Tears were flowing down my face like a water rapid. My makeup was smudged and my checks were burning. My eyes were as red as roses and they stung badly from all the salt within my tears. I messed up and I had ruined 2 guys lives with only one knowing the truth. How could I live with this? The answer was, I couldn't. As much as I wanted to call Brennen I couldn't bring myself to do it, I grabbed a piece of paper and wrote everything I wanted people to know when I was gone then made my way to my room. I opened one of the draws on my bedside table and took out a small black box. I took the lid off and threw it across the bed, within this small black box of nightmares was the razor I had used to cut for the first time and I was planning to use it to cut for the last time. I looked down at my wrist as I placed the razor to it, it was cold and sharp. "No stop, don't do this please, you don't deserve this." There was a little voice of Brennen in the back of my head and I couldn't ignore it. I hadn't properly said goodbye; I didn't tell him how I felt. I threw the razor across the room and watched as it bounced on the wall and fell to the ground, I looked down at my wrists and saw that I had accidently cut myself, but now that I had started I had to finish whether i liked it or not.

---Brennen's POV---

"What happened, what made you do this. Please tell me I want to help you," there was silence, all I could hear was her lightly crying in my arms. I hugged her tighter kissing the top of her head "I know you're going to hate this, but let's talk about this." She didn't say anything but nodded, she placed her hand in my hand and brought me to her room. When we got there, there was no blood stains, nothing that would suggest anything. I felt relived because I didn't exactly want to see it. She gestured for me to sit down on the bed and I obeyed, she then handed me a folded up piece of paper with few spots of water damage that read "Brennen"