You're Mine (Colby x Reader)

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---(Y/N) POV---

I handed him my confession, I couldn't speak because if even one word came out my mouth I could feel that I would entirely break down. I didn't want him to know but I knew it was for the better. He cared about me and all I was doing was pushing him away, it needed to stop, I needed to stop. I watched as his eyes move left to write reading, analysing, soaking in everything I had wrote. I wrote this note for Colby originally but realised he wouldn't understand it as much as Brennen did. Brennen's face went from blank, to angry, to sad, to now tears of sadness while burning hot rage. He ripped the piece of paper in half and scrunched into a ball before throwing it as hard as he could across the room. He looked me dead in the eyes "I am so sorry." He said beginning to break down again. Before I could register anything I was tackled onto my back and his lips were on mine again. He stopped only to take a breather and stared at me, I weakly smiled and he weakly smiled back.

---Brennen's POV---

The note tore my heart in half then put it in a blender and purified it. She had such a hard child hood with family abuse and then a terrible life after her parents died because her aunt and uncle starved and worked her like and animal. It didn't get any better with her first boyfriend because he verbally assaulted her and since she had no one to turn to she had to use cutting as a way to escape. I had a lump in my through but I was full of rage. I wanted to find all these people and punch them all very hard so that they were hanging onto life by a thread just like they made her feel. I couldn't handle it anymore; I didn't want this to be true. I ripped the page in half and balled it up before throwing it across the room. When I looked back at her tears were slowly falling down her face "I am so sorry." I needed her to feel better now, I couldn't stand to see her like this, she deserved so much better in life. I could resist and soon enough I was on top of her kissing her soft lips. They were the perfect shape and size to fit my lips as we kissed, like they were made for each other. I looked down at her and watched her smile weakly, I knew she was sad but I didn't want her to be, not anymore and never again. I weakly smiled back at her. "(Y/N), I need to tell you something that I have never told anyone before." She nodded and did an action of zipping her lips closed locking them and then throwing away the key. I lifted my shirt and threw it on the floor. I lifted my left arm and pointed at that rib cage. "This is why I understand what you're going through." I watched as she realised what I was showing her. SHe pulled my arm down and shook her head while beginning to cry again, I could feel the fresh tears on my skin. She was crying really quietly but as I went to get my shirt off the floor she began to hyperventilate. What the fuck was going on.

---(Y/N)'s POV---

Panic had set in; I couldn't control it any longer. My long breaths quickly turned in to sharp short breaths as the attack set in. I don't know what triggered it, either the fact Brennen had previously also hurt himself or the fact that he could have died and then who would have stopped me. Either or I couldn't calm myself down. I watched as Brennen quickly pulled his shirt over his head and rushed back to me pulling me back into a hug. "Deep breaths (Y/N), long deep breaths, everything is going to be ok, I am here, you are here, no need to freak out, cry if you need to but deep breaths." As hard as I tried I could, it felt as though my lungs were getting tighter and breathing was becoming more and more of a challenge. I began to feel very faint and before you could drop an apple to the floor I was out cold. All I could remember was Brennen yelling "No, keep your eyes open, don't pass out on me, (Y/N) NOOOO!" and then the pitch black darkness I could see now. No noise, no visuals, just blackness. An infinite nothing........